hello.

i feel bored. went late to church. woke up only at 10 okay. HAHA. service starts at 10. HAHA. then yeah yeah yeah. OMG. GDOP da bombxzxzx! :D so fun okay. HAHA. i shall make it to gdop everytime man. jumpjumpjump, singsingsing, yayyayyay! :D HAHA. praise the awesome God! (: dinner with ahma and yeah. sorry for the horrible messages. sometimes, i just really hate you. and do not wish to talk to you. you dont have to say anything if you dont want to. saves me alot more hurt. thank you.

anyway, going to tamp1 with audrey tmr i think. bbq or buffet? haha. you decideeee! (: ohwell.

i shall calm myself down. I think, that I am, pms-ing. SO, do not come near me. not only will i bite, i'll chew you till there's none left to chew. i'd spit out the remains of your bones and off in the fire it goes. so yes. do not, i repeat, do not make me go to that extent. thank you very much.

okay i feel like telling you you and you abt me! :D
hello, my name is ngeeping.
do you know what my favourtie colour is?
do you know who my girlfriend is?
do you know who my bestfriend is?
do you know what cca im in?
do you know what i carry around everywhere i go?
do you know what kind of hair i have?
do you know whether i wear specs or not?
do you know what instruments i play?
do you know who i go recess with?
do you know who i hang out with in class?
do you know where i live?
do you know what i take to school?
do you know how many tuition classes i have?
do you know whether i paint my toenails?
do you know what kind of bag i carry?
do you know what i have inside my bag?
do you know whether i wear a watch?
do you know what brand of watch i would wear?
do you know what brand of watch i am wearing now?
do you know what degree my glasses are?
do you know when is my birthday?
do you know what are my favourite numbers are?
do you know what 23 stands for?
do you know what i like?
do you know whether i like balloons?
do you know whether i like fish?
do you know whether i like candles?
do you know whether i like bubbles?
do you know whether i like bananas?
do you know whether i like broccoli?
do you know anything about me at all?
if not, go and die. BLEAH.

haha okay, goodnight goodbye.

hello.


hmm, so much for rain and shine today. didnt go out for cycling today): stayed home to rot to death. ohwell. at least i did some math. doesnt make me feel all that bad. sigh ohwell.


i want to see you.
i want to see you smile.
i want you to hold my hand.
i want you to lean on my shoulder.
i want to see you laugh.
i want to put my arms around your waist.
i want you to be here with me.
i want to make you happy.
i want you to tell me you love me.



so many wants, what does soon really mean?



k im off to, i dont really know what or where im off to. just somewhere not here. lets follow pebbi and gebbi and go off to dreamland for a date shall we? (:

goodnight, goodbye.

i'd still say i love you even if you think they are meaningless, because i know i mean everyone one of it when i say one.

its really late, and im awake. i dont really know why. sigh.

no more quarrels okay? no more angry angry at each other okay? ): i hate it that we fight. we're not supposed to be unhappy. i want you to be happy):

k cycling tmr. gotta go sleep now or i'll fall off my bike tmr): goodnight all, goodnight baby.

four slits. hmm. to see it bleed, then feel the hurt was exhilarating. i dont know how to describe it but ohwell.

i promise to tell you i love you everyday.
i promise to surprise you once every week.
i promise to quarrell with you once every month.
i promise when it rains i'll shield you from the rain.
i promise when the world comes tumbling down i'll hold you tight and never let you go.
do you believe my promises?

omg yay we can go back for practices to practice for the honour band concerttt! :D kinda miss band alot): HAHA jolene i know you also miss us righttttt! HAHAHA. sigh, but i guess its nice to see that your juniors have grown up eh. HAHA k this makes me seem super old. i am NOT old at all(: arra older. HAHAHA.

oh yeahhhh! happy belated arra heloiseeeee! :D eighteen ahhh! so old. HAHAHA. k love youuuu! (: (secretly! HAHA)

okay im bored. k bye.

sigh, okay im like here at home rotting away. im kinda annoyed. my mother went to read my compo. annoying laaa. ): is there nothing such as privacy? ): rawr.

dont be sad, i'll be here to let you whisper your sadness away. im a phone call away, anytime anyday. i never want to see you upset or sad. i never want to because it hurts inside. to see you sad and not being able to do anything. im shoulder's available if you need it. im ears are free to listen to your whispers. come to me, cause im here for you.

sigh. tj concert now. i want to see charlene): sigh. k bye.

OMG. WE'RE OFFICIALLY PLAYING FOR THE HONOUR BAND CONCERT. OMG. TKGSSB WE ROCKKKKKKKK! :D kudos to the whole syf batch! (: we brought back honour for tkgssb(: woohooooooo! :D

happy 15th birthday audrey! (:
i love you(:

hi(:

dinner was fantastic! :D we got to watch the guy cook. like. omg! super duper coolllllll! :D HAHA. but super duper fullllll! HAHA. jap food, ain't that bad actually(: HAHA.

and well, this is like my, i think fourth time blogging. sigh. what a birthday today. it doesnt really seem to be the best day of my life): sigh. k ohwell. i shall ignore that. at least, i really enjoyed myself yesterday(:

hold my hand again will you? i dont really wanna initiate things anymore. i want you to do it. i know i didnt imagine you holding my hand. i know you did. and it felt nice. it really did. make me happy a little more sometimes, please? ): its not alot to ask for is it?

alright, its getting late. maybe i'll post tmr if i feel like it. but i guess i wont really feel like it. k, goodbye goodnight.

hi okay the photos are ready to be put upppp! :D okay i shall upload it at the end of the post. well anyway, today must seriously be the most boring day ever. not only did i not step out of the house, i got annoyed because of stupid people. and it just sucks, big time. sigh. how i wish yesterday was today. ): more meaningful big sixteenth. ohwell. xiushi came to gimme cell group cake(: omg. fourth cake in two days. HAHA. one from gang, two from aunt and one from xiu! haha. cake filledddddd! :D

the picture that says i love you, is coincidentally picture 101. sweet isn't it?

please, i beg you. never to ever listen or believe anything she says okay? im not close to her. i never will be close to her. believe me okay? rather than believing in her pack of lies, alright? it kinda hurt when you said she said it like as if you all were very close. it just kinda hurt. thats all. i hope, and i pray that you never listen to her ever again. thats all. i love you so terribly.

okay i shall sign off with photos. goodbye. okay blogger only allows this for now. others next time. im off to dinner with my family! (: bye! :D

I HATE YOU S.
why did you go and have to ruin today of all days.
YOU SUCK SO MUCH.
to hell with you.

HI! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME! :D
i had a ball of a time yesterdayyyy! :D firstly, thank you audrey tan for giving me the first present yesterday! (: HAHA. i so loved the bag and box of many many many stuff! :D i'll go listen to the cd! :D thank you so so so much! (: then joemin and amy ahhh! HAHA. ask daphne and vanessa make me walk slower! i crawling already can. HAHA. thanks amy and joemin for the shirttt! :D pretty! :D and thanks shi for the scary cute ghost! (: HAHA. and woohoooo! :D yesterday got band! (: HAHA. played ponyooo! but was kinda slacking throughout. HAHA. combine was funny. HAHA. then went outtt! :D went to parkway. omg earthquake! HAHA. oh, while they were deciding what to get me, i was trying to listen lor. then they ask daphne entertain me. HAHA. good entertaining ah daphne! snowboarding, i not so pro la): HAHA. but thanks! :D lime ice cream is weird. HAHA. then pizzaaaaaaa! (: then audrey and joemin disappear!!!! ): what change pad, what constipation lor. HAHAHA. got me fooleddd! HAHA. but i expected something but not that! (: went to the carpark lobby to eat! (: surprise cakeeeee! :D HAHA. thanks audrey thahira jolene joemine amy daphneee! (: and i had to sing my birthday song, myself okay. the rest only last line then sing lor): "happy birthday to me): happy birthday to me): happy birthday to me-eeee): HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU(:" HAHA. they made me give this cute girl a piece of cake lor. HAHA. she so cute! HAHA. then went to video world to slack. audrey sent me off at the bus stop. thanks for TWO hugs! (: made my day(: HAHA. then off to yan's houseeeeeee! went to shop for stuff like ice etc etc. dinner buffet was fantastic. i kept eating okay. HAHA. had swensens ice cream cake! omg. HAHA. played with yan's new camcorder! omg. super fun can. HAHA. can be host for stupid interviews! :D HAHA. reached home and died on my bed. HAHA. enjoyed myself super super much! (:

thanks everyone for the wishes at midnight or 1159! according to time!
1144: rahmah! :D
1159: audreyyy!! <333 thahira! :D <33
midnight and onwards! : lishan, daphne, fel, jolene, yauting, KIDSSS! :D
today: jackie, tzu chun, arra, sarah tan, charlene, robyn, deborah, renee, tajpreet, chenfang, joemin, qishan, jessica tan, desiree, sheryl.
thanks you all! :D

k photos are refusing to be uploaded. stupid com. k another time okay? or later la! (: k bye! :D

hi omg! that was so thahira okay. she totally typed everything. except my few sentences in a bracket la. HAHA. she was lameeeeee! HAHA. okay i shall tell you about my eventful day yesterday. i had to wake my idiot brother up. so i got up super early): and couldnt go back to sleep): so i just kinda lolled around and did nothing. HAHAHA. then bus-ed to thahira's houseeeee! she's mad. HAHA. i felt good. talked SOOOOOO much to her. HAHA. did stupid things at her house. HAHA. then watched silent hill! omg. scary. but didnt get to finish): went to go find.. AUDREY TANNNNN! :D HAHA. then went to follow eat eattttt! then walk walk awhile and home we went): but. i feel good(: i made the two people i love most, kinda happy(: heehee(: k pictures and bye! :D ignore the previous post please. it was all thahira's stupid doing. HAHA. k bye! :D
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k that was so yesterday. didnt get to post it. HAHA. okay elearning is sucky. HAHA. firstly, i was super late. HAHA. i woke up at 915 and went "shit shit SHITTTTT!" then ran out. HAHA. did it. helped audrey tan tan too! (: HAHA. then yeah. went out to lunch and shop around with my mummy. we walked around the whole of parkway. like literal, round and round and round! HAHA. ohwell. quite fun laaa! HAHA. i happy! tmr gonna be even happier! :D HAHA. k give you hint! special day on sunday! hinthint. HAHAHA. k really, BYEBYE! :D

HELLO I'm at thahira's house now.
Her room damn neat and smells DAMN nice!
You should come toooo! HEEHEEHEE(:
THAHIRA'S THE BESTEST WOOHOO.
She looks so HAWT in the pyjamas!!! -FAINTS- ;)
(omg this is so thahira typing!!! please dont listen to a word she is saying. she is so not hot please. what more, HAWT. HAHAHA. okay i shall disappear and let her ego somemore!)
OH WHATEVER I'm just jealous thahira SOOO HOT. :D

This sunday its my birthday *hint hint!!!*
I hope I have a party!! Last night I dreamt that everybody come my house surprise me, I just told Thahira the dream. (Thahira rolls eyes) MUAHA.
I'm sleeping on Thahira's "JELLY" the giraffe and it says "ROAR"
(but hey, giraffes don't roar luh..) For me, everything must ROAR.
And Im singing now... I know I sound damn horrible.. SIGH
HOW I WISH I COULD SING LIKE THAHIRA, SOO NICE (;

Heee okie I go play with my favourite THAHIRAAAA <3

omg hi. i tell you. im seriously bored. i've been rotting away at home. sigh. piano in the morning. did some chores. rotten potatoes that melt, smells exactly like dead people. ohgod. ohwell. i have been rotting ever since. no one's talking to me. stupid thahira go swimming. audrey disappeared on a mission. WHO AM I TO TALK TOOO??? -desperate cries heard- HAHA. okay, too dramaaaaa! miss ang was like, 'why you never join drama!' ohwell. be glad im in band! (: heehee(: HAHA. okay i shall create a tagboard later on. commenting is weird. HAHA. oh yay my memory card can be read. omgggggggg! k photosssss! :D okay wait. my com is hanging. dang. this sucks. i shall request for a lappy for my birthday(: HAHA okay look at the photosssss! :D pebbi went for a swim. she's super white(: mother say gebbi look like african. HAHA. look at me and ziiii! and my attitude-d face. HAHAHA. :D when we were kids. and the rest all random. some is when we went for syffff! our last with tkgssb): sigh. i miss band already): i miss my sectionnnnnnnnnn): sigh k bye! :D enjoy the photos(:

Thank you.
I know no matter how many times I say thanks, it'll nvr be able to express how I truly feel.
Cause what's inside is indescribably nice and a really soothing feeling.
You always make me smile and laugh at over anything and everything.
You always make me enjoy everything we do, together.
Cause I know I have you, I know I have nothing to worry about.
I know you'll always be there for me, protecting me.
I just want you to know, I'll always be here for you, and lend you my strong shoulder.
Be here to let you hold me hand tight, and keep encouraging you on.
You'll feel the wind surging, and a storm brewing, but do not fear cause I'll be by your side no matter what.
That, is a solemn promise I make to you, and I'll never break it (:
I want you to keep hanging on no matter what, cause you know I wont give up on you.
You know it inside out.
So for now, let's just enjoy each other's company and keep staying strong.
For we have each other.

haha grabbed it off my old lj. ohwell. i guess, i'll forget that horrible scene. it kept replaying in my head last night though. time and time again. i cried for you not to go. you stopped. you didnt turn, and you walked out. again and again. it was like a broken video replaying itself. over and over again. for that five whole hours that you didnt talk to me. five whole hours. i've nvr cried for so long in my whole entire life. but, ohwell. k im having cramps. period time. dont aggravate me okay. i'll murder you. goodbye.

im sorry. i really am. i dont want any birthday present. i dont want anything. i just dont want you to ignore me. i just want you to tell me you love me. is it really hard to do that? im sorry. i am. sorry.

if you dont know. its okay.
if you dont care. its okay.
if you dont love. its okay.
i promised to love you forever.
and i will; i dont want to break promises aymore.
i will say i hate you for making me love you.
i will say i hate you for making me believe you.
but its what i say.
deep down, you know, i know.
that i still love you.
but, i dont think you really do anymore.
and it hurts.
but you dont really care do you?

HI! :D

omg i kinda had fun today. emath was alright! (: geog was okay i guess. who cares. only left with physicsssssss! :D woohooooo! :D HAHA. anyway, went out with audrey, amy, joemin after school. omg i typed joeman. HAHAHA. anyway, went everywhere. buttttttttt! so suay please. of all times and of all places. please la, more like you ruin our moods right. you what ruined mood cos of us. puh-lease. but we didnt let that bitch ruin our day. no way will she ruin my day. went to videoworld to slackkkkk. best place ever manxzxz. HAHA.

okay i was talking to thahira just now. look what she said.
THAHIRA says:
EH POST ABOUT ME!!
THAHIRA says:
"THAHIRA DAMN AWESOME SIAH!"
please, she is so not awesome can. HAHA. aiya i tell you what she is okay. she might probably be the worst uncool unawesome bestfriend ever cannn. sigh. i wonder why i have such a a bestfriend okay. HAHAHA. k la, joking. HAHA. best bestfriend ever la(: HAHA. but thahira, please dont be ego. HAHA.

ohwell. im starting to dread what may start coming. its only such a short time and im missing you so much already. you told me you wouldnt be able to go out anymore. not even on tuesdays. it just kinda made me sad. you know i get emotionally attached. sometimes it hurts you know? ):

well k bye. dont really feel like talking anymore. i hate CYT. kbye.

damnit.

i hate ___________. just my luck to have met such people. thank God im leaving like at the end of this year. if you were to ask me to stay a while longer, i guess i'll pass out for you to see. sigh. amath and chem wasn't so good today): how to get my target this term): omg): sigh.

i will not stop going to videoworld because i believe i am not that unlucky to see you there EVERYTIME i go there. dont ruin the place i love to go to after school okay? let me at least enjoy it there without having to see you there okay? at least till the end of this year okay? its not veh hard is it? sigh. new generation BABIES are spoilt brats. take a look at you you and you. sigh, classic example. i shall not waste my time talking about you. you only make my blood boil. especially when you think NSF can help. please stop siding them when you're talking to them, and then siding us when you're talking to us. its being a FAKE, exactly like them.

sigh. k studying for lit now! goodbye. wish me luck i wont get to see that bitch tmr.