i miss random senseless dedications.
i miss random letters and notes.
i miss long goodnight messages.
i miss alot of things, tell me why.

i had a great time today. thanks drey(:
ghosts or girlfriends past, lunch and home.
yeap.
love you girl.

kbye.

hello!

i hate people who are annoying. RAWR. go away and dont annoy me. let yixuan use you as a mais to clean our classroom so miss yeo will never have to scold us again. i hate you plus the whole bunch of you. annoy me. RAWR. okay actually not annoy me, but annoy people around me, which actually indirectly annoy me. okay, lets stick back to the old thing. you all just really really, REALLY annoy me. go away.

anyway, today's a special day! :D

23rd and a tuesday! (:

heehee(:

i watched monsters vs aliens 3d just now! not that bad la, but definitely overpriced. heng ah not weekend. or definitely a rip off. HAHA. 3d glasses totally annoying though. i wanna watch so many many many moviesssss! ): rawr. i wanna watch upppppp!!!!! so many balloons): i also want okay): and drag me to hell. and ghosts of girlfriends past. and alot alot alot moreeeee): -wails terribly-

look at that. omg. i want that too. ):

Os suck. h1n1 sucks even more. no band for next two weeks. we're so going to the esplanade to make a fool of ourselves. brace yourself for a not very good performance if you're going. pray hard, very hard. that we wont screw up.

im going to be happy tmr, so im not going to be upset now. i shall go soon, and sleep. lack of sleep makes ngeeping an angry ngeeping. so go away, do not disturb me. goodbye.

i still think about you.
i hope you're doing well up there with the mighty God.
i love you ahma.


hmm, today i didnt go for mep cos i woke up late. heh. HAHA. ohwell. holidays are coming to an endddddddd!!!! ): dont wanna go back to school): we've got stupid ir from the first day of school all the way to prelims okay. and of all subjects to start with, they have to choose chem. yuckkk. and dang, prelims are near as well. being sce four reeks like shit.


went to ahmah's grave on saturday. made some prayers and sang some praises. i miss her, so very much. ahma, we all still remember you and miss you very terribly. ):






















i'll post again if i feel like it. goodbye.

because i give up trying,

i take a walk on that familiar pathway we used to take a walk on
alone; wishing you to be by my side.
walking with fingers interlaced,
imitating the stupid way i walk.

had band today. hsinyu came back! (: she was busy harrassing me. omg. HAHAHA. not my fault if i cannot come on friday): anyway lishan limelightttt! so yeah. i come or not also no difference! HAHA. but charelene and hsinyu both coming! ): hopefully my mother allows me to go): went for jiu gong's funeral. hope you're in heaven with the almighty God and in peace now. we promise to remember you always, in our heart.

make me feel a little more wanted, please? im afraid i'll sink all the way in and hurt myself ultimately. tell me im wrong. and that you'll pull me out. you mean the entire world to me. the whole entire world.

hi!

audrey said bananas have a special chemical that makes you happy. i ate two, but im still upset. why?

i want to go to japan and share a room with you.
i want to go to the moon and fly around holding your hand.
i want to sit on the beach and watch the sun rise with you.
i want to hold onto you forever and never let go.
i want to do so many things, but i dont know if i can.
i dont know if i have the time.
i dont know if i can.

HELLO!!!!! -waves at you!-

haha okay random outburst of madness. the stupid period has finally decided to come. dont come near me okay? i'll kill you with one bite. i have massive sharp pretty teeth(:

and cheng told me jolene said section outing to vivo to watch monster vs aliens 3d. hmm. HAHA. for the sake of the being with my stupid juniors who i'd miss so much, i'd go. (: HAHAHA. and cheng promised she'll make it super duper memorableeeee! keep to your word ah(: HAHA.

k cramps are here to kill. and gosh, lets hope school closes. HAHA. pandemic 6 already you knowwww! lets all get swine flu and die. dont have to take olevels then. HAHA. but then again, what for when we've started studying our butts off already? sighhhhhhhhh. my daddy's got fever): i want fever too): i like fever. (: haha.

okay im bored. shall entertain myself. goodbyeeee! :D

hello.

hickles! heehee. (:

physics spa was alright. i had time to do two. HAHA. the stupid hall with no air con had stupid big fans which kept making the papers fly. annoyingg! haha. tmr chem spa. go school for stupid one hour and go back home. HAHA. ohwell. the stupid things school makes us do.

sometimes you make me feel lousy. like im the worst person you ever want to be around. it hurts. im sorry.

k im flying away to dreamland soon cos im upset. goodnight.

hello im bored. lets check out the quiz i ripped from mee's blog. HAHA.

Name a friend from A to Z!
A: Audrey
B: Bibi
C: ChenFang
D: Danielle
E: audrEy
F: Fazlina
G: Gina
H: Hsin-Yu
I: ( none): )
J: Jolene
K: KaiNing
L: Lishan
M: Marilyn
N: Nava
O: Odelia
P: Pooja
Q: Qishan
R: Rahmah
S: Shruthi
T: Thahira
U: ( none): )
V: Vanessa
W: ( none): )
X: XiaoNan
Y: YiXuan
Z: ZiLing

1) Can R and S be together in BGR?
rahmah+shruthi NOOO. they're both girls. HAHA.

2) How is L related to you?
lishan stringbass juniorrrr! :D

3) Does Y know Z?
yixuan+ziling no. HAHA.

4) If C betrays you, will you kill her?
chenfang HAHA no she wont betray me please.

5) If T steals your boyfriend, what will you do?
thahira HAHAHA i'll stop being her bestfriend. HAHA.

6) If B tells you she/he has a crush on you, what will you do?
bibi HAHAHA laugh and laugh, and laugh somemore.

7) Will you and M ever get into a fight?
marilyn HAHA she tells me she hates me everyday, what do you think? HAHA.

8) Who does Z have a crush on?
ziling dunno, no one i guess?

9) If G calls you a bitch, what would you do?
gina probably laugh it off. but i dont think she'll be that evil. HAHA.

10) What is the relation between you and E?
audrEy HAHA this is why i put it here! (: my girlfriend laaa(:

11) What does S like?
shruthi shouting. HAHA. S likes to Shout! HAHA.

12) Who is I's best friend?
i dont have a friend who's name starts with I):

13) What colour does Y like?
yixuan probably red since she's always so angry. HAHA.

14) Where does F live?
fazlina i think kovan area. but i dont stalk her okayyyy! HAHA.

15) Did you and C have a fight before?
chenfang nope. we good cell mates(:

16) What can you say about T?
thahira ohh, i can say alot of "good" things. but i shall not(: she's a great bf! :D

17) If J tells you he/she has a crush on you?
jolene HAHA laugh my ass off. HAHA.

next survey also ripped. HAHA. i only taking some questions cos stupid mee's blog cannot copy paste): <

1) If you married the last person you texted, what will your last name be?
TAN TAN TANNNNN! :D

2) Were you happy when you woke up?
NO. my idiot brother was shrieking at me to wake up cos i was late): <

3) When were you last on the phone? And with who?
around four plus, with my piano teacher. HAHA.

4) What are you excited for?
thursday date with her! :D

5) What were you doing yesterday?
having school and stupid chinese tuition): <

6) Honestly, who was the last one who said i love you to you?
(: (: audrey tan! (:

7) What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
watermelon! i no more bananas):

8) Have a best friend?
like duhhhh. thahira la. or maybe notttt):

9) Are you scared to fall in love?
no, i already in love(:

10) Do you think teenagers can be in love?
yeah why not? im a teenager! (:

11) Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
the bus driver who refused to let me pay 55cants): <

12) What do you want right now?
a hug):

13) Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
i am, taken(:

14) When was the last time you cried?
last night):

15) I bet you miss somebody right now?
yes, a hell lot): stop bathing and text me):

16) How's your heart?
my heart's doing fine. (: no heart attacks like mee! HAHA.

17) Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
yeah, it sucks to feel that way):

18) Do you think somebody's in love with you?
yes, heehee(:

19) Next time will you kiss someone?
why not? (:

20) You're locked in the room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
its great(: and i'll get back to kissing again(: HAHAHA.

21) Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yes please do so): (ohyay(: i really got a text right after i typed it!)

22) Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
of course(:

23) Name the last person that texted you.
audrey tan! :D

24) What do you want your audience to understand after reading this?
HAHA you just wasted a whole load of your time reading stupid stuff(:

kbyebye! :D

take a photo of me,
and remember me forever.


when you kissed me,
it was like someone stuck my finger in a socket and left it to sizzle.

sometimes life just chooses to make hell for you.
sometimes parents just choose to be unreasonable.
sometimes stuff just chooses to get in your way.
then what are you going to do abt it?

why some things occur and some things not, makes me wonder why all the bad things happen and not the good.

when the earth beneath us start to crumble, would you still hold onto me?
i know i would.

hi! :D

yesterday was okay i guess. had piano in the morning. the chem in the afternoon. then dinner at zi's place! omg. had fun. time to relax okay. HAHA. rawr.

today missed church cos overslept): did amath though(: i've got nothing more to say. HAHA.

chem and physics spa on 10th and 11th. wish me luck! haha.

i only wish i could spend more time with you, before i cant anymore. would you spend more time with me? ):

k photos and bye. ):

heyo! :D






















lets play with sparklers again, shall we? (:

today, i got up late. again. omg im such a pig. i sleep so early and wake up so late okay. feel, embarrassed): HAHAHA. not. but on time laaa. anyway lessons just skimed through. wasnt really listening. omg. TJ auditions. totally screwed up. F# major 2 octaves? omg. HAHAHA. i didnt hear charlene say two octaves. then blank out already play some minor stuff then she said two octaves after i finished. omg. im deaf): then played the wrong stuff all over again okay. please pity me): HAHA. the sightreading was omg. so hard. all the triplets. ): charlene said she had a hard time sourcing for a hard sightreading. please lor): cheat my feelings): HAHA. but i guess most of us got asked to send in our applications. so congrats to those, and cheerup to the rest alright? you can try harder for Os yeah? (:

OMG. i had a yucky dream. let me tell you abt it. omg. yuckyuckyuck. i dreamt that i was walking in this empty field. then suddenly got alotalotalot of indian men with hand at. there. saying the same yucky stuff okay. read audrey's blog for the yucky sentence. omg. then i run and scream and scream and screamed till i woke up. omg. HAHA. so suay please.

okay, im bored. going to sleep again probably. or go to bed and miss you): k bye):

hello.

i want a bubble machine to blow my troubles away too):

i woke up late today, even though i slept before 1030 and set two alarms. omg. HAHA. heard the alarm, felt the alarm, switched it off and went back to sleep. it was 530000! what do you expect okay. HAHA. then the next time i woke up, broad daylight. the sun was shining in, i was feeling great and fresh too! what a great way to start my day! (:

NOT.

got to school late. rawr. got food before going in though. hungry people in class calling for help! HAHA. ohwell. lessons were the boring-est everrrr. whats the use of supp classes man. they're gonna bomb us with ir from the first day of school in T3 all the way till prelims okay. omg. laoya stupid school system. screw it man. rawr.

on a lighter and happier note, i made myself super happy after school(: took the bus with nava and shruthi. da bombxzxz man. they so funny. HAHA. then went to audrey's house! :D :D :D hehheh(: watched some shin chan, ate frosties, fooled around(:, and homeeeeee. i was so late going home okay. my gosh. HAHAHA. i was messaging and i looked back up to see my 43 being driven away. ): but i enjoyed myself(: heehee(: some people hornehhhh! (:

ohwell. tmr there is mock chem and physics spa. fantasticccccccc. sigh. why does the school keep doing things to us? sigh. you juniors out there, better enjoy your life first before its too late. HAHA. oh, mr tan was like MOP spa to-morrow. HAHAHAHA. laughing our asses off in class. not unless you have the new and improved restickable ass like rury, your ass would be off. HAHAHA. the little things that make like a little more interesting.

anyway, band is in a way, collapsing. come on guys, we have faith in you. dont let us down again and again okay? you wouldnt want us to leave thinking: " i never ever want to come back to band again, because im afraid of what it might have become when we leave." do you? come on, you can do it okay?

okay goodbye. i shall go try to salvage my mocks tmr. goodnightttt! :D

why must you tell me not to reply you until you do? second time you're doing it. i really dont like it. really really dont. i can be weird and jealous over stupid stuff, but do you really have to ask me not to reply you? you dont have to talk to me if you dont want. just tell me to go away. not reply you only when you reply. because i have no single clue when you're ever going to reply. and whenever you say that, you just disappear, like forever. and return only after my heart has been torn up apart by those very words. why?

heyyyy! (: seoul gardens was fun(: ate like, woah. im a fat fat pig already man. HAHA. ohwell. walked everywhere. everywhere of tamp1. every level, every store in that place. just, everywhere. feet ache like shit man. ): haha. but i enjoyed myself velli velli much(: thanks you audrey tantantannnn :D

sorry i know i expect too much sometimes. sorry i have that funny yucky feeling sometimes. its a funny yucky feeling from all the way, deep down inside. and it sucks. ): everytime i feel like, i want to cry. ): so yeah, really sorry for acting all weird. its difficult holding back tears. the feeling comes everytime you have to go. every single time. because i just hate that i have to wave goodbye to you. even if its just for that day and that i can see you the very next. even if i can see you the very next day. it just really sucks. am i to feel this funny yucky feeling everyday after i leave tk? im afraid. really afraid.