You promised you'll come back, so I'll wait.

I'm awake so early in the morning and crying. I dreamt of you and was crying. Like I haven't been crying enough for the whole entire day. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what went wrong with me. I wanna be strong and show you I don't need you, but you and I both know. I'm crumbling inside as I watch you leave. And you just don't care no more.

I guess it's just cause I chose to give you a chance when you said you needed me. I guess I just laid out my heart on the road to nowhere, giving you a chance to step on it over and over again. Someone said when you like someone, you know why. But when you love someone, you have no idea why. I don't know if this was ever love, but to me. It was. And I thank you for it. For I never knew love was something so beautiful. And even as I let you go, I'll tell you that I love you. Just tell me, did I do something wrong?

had a fantastic time at ziling's place last nighttttt(: awesomeee. :D HAHA. just slacked around and stuff but it felt good(: watched family guy. HAHAHA. stewie. HAHAHA. rahmah. HAHAHA. okay nvm inside joke. hmm. okay balling again tmrrrr! :D but liyana and putri fasting so cannot): hmm. but we'll see how. pray that i wont get injured again. HAHAHA. okay bye(:

Let me tell you my love story. It felt like love at first sight. I let my heart skip so many beats everytime she turned to smile or wave at me. I let my heart melt over and over again everytime she hugged or kissed me. Oh those lips of hers; the last time I remembered tasting them, it was like strawberry icing on my birthday cake; oh how I want to taste those very lips again. I loved her, with my whole heart. But maybe it wasn't enough. She never seemed satisfied anymore, no matter how hard I tried, or how I never tried. She just seemed to fade away, she just seemed to stop loving me. I told myself she still did, but I think I was just living in a big fat facade. She broke this tiny heart of mine when she let go, and now I'm letting go of the small fragments it was broken into. The small fragments I held on so tightly when you smashed my heart. Maybe someone will come, maybe someone will catch it. Maybe, just maybe, someone will make an effort to mend it. But for now, I just don't believe in love no more.

so sad rightttt! ): haha. hmm, i slept for like less than three hours today. omg. like from three to five plus. then sleep abit more then late for tuition. HAHAHA. ohwell. thanks you Mr. Happy for making me happy(: hmm.

The ring of your laughter sounds so foreign, and 'Why did I let you slip away?' I wonder.

Stupid amy cheated my feelings): I woke up late and rushed to school. And she wasn't even in class. But I got a hug in the end(: Balling was horrible omg. I kena hit like so many times. Totally disoreinted. Damn. And I tripped over putri's legs on the floor my head hit. And stupid cheryl phong had to throw the stupid ball at the other side of my head. Damn, today has really got to be the suckiest day. Why did you have to make it awkward? Or was it just my mind doing funny things to me? Hmm, I really wonder. Tmr's english paper. Greatttttt. I'm just really glad this week is coming to an end, it was not exactly one of my best weeks. Alright, bye.

Bring me to that place you said had nothing bad existing in it. I don't want to stay here no more, where there are tears and broken hearts. I don't want to stay here no more.

I was just reading back. Hmm, it really did seem like yesterday. And today, I don't know you no more. And you know, it hurts to see you walk by and not say hi.

yay balling with classmates tmr during recess. gosh, balling is like totally the in thing right now. heh(: and im so totally getting a tan(: YAYYYYY! okay. haha. damn, today's mep was total crap. and ew, guys who take mep are totally gross. barbaric, and girls from cedar. hmm. HAHA. i didnt know they could walk so slutty-ish. total yuckness. damn. i think i shall remove my eyeballs and boil them. cleanse them man. HAHA. damn, i feel like talking to amy tmr at bball court tmr morn and she has to have stupid meeting): damn you meetings): prefectsssssssss, stop having meetings): but maybe i might make an effort to wake up earlier to go school talk to her. since i'm feeling nice(: HAHA. hmm, k gotta go cramp stupid things into this tiny brain. BYEBYEEEEEEE!

And baby, when i'm with you, its like i'm in a whole new world. Where nothing can stand between you and me.

Damn, why the fuck is it eating my insides?

Why, you're welcome. Thank you very much as well.

And Dory said, 'Don't go. I remember things better with you. I remember. I know I do. It's in here somewhere. Cause when I look at you, I become a whole. I don't want to go. Cause I don't want to forget.'

Ohmygod, prelims are like next week. Ew and guess what we start with. Yucky mep. Damn. Since when do exams spread across three weeks?! Alright, let's do this right. Bye!

Oh wow. Surprise me again.

If you can not care about the fact that we aren't friends, then I'll make the effort to not let that fact eat me inside out.
If you can not reply me, I'll make the effort not to text you again.

Why am I breaking inside? Why do you have to make it so difficult for me? True I did let you down, but is it really neccesary to make it so difficult? Why not just take my heart, and stab it repeatedly? Physical pain ain't that bad, because at least I know it'll all end when it stops beating, I know it'll all be over and there won't be pain no more. Putting up a fake front to show you I'm happy without you is tiring. And now I give up. Laugh over it, it's alright. Because at least my feelings are real. And I tell you upfront. Not go behind your back and ask your classmates whether you bitched about me.

But you dont have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore;

I'm sorry for every wrong I ever did to you. But I'm human, I get tired of picking up your slack at times. I'm no robot, I don't run on oil 24/7. Please take care. Goodbye now. Thank you for being my friend.

Because when you told me you cared, I chose to believe you.

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been givin' out chances everytime
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long baby
But I figured you out
And you think it would be fine again
But not this time around;
You're not sorry.

ohmygod, i so wanna use my mc all the way till wednesday. the flu is gross, the coughing isn't planning to stop any sooner. and my ear feels like i just stuffed chili padis into it, definitely on fire, and in pain. damn, i didn't know being sick would suck so badly. ohwell, anyway, happy national day! yeah. take care you, i hope maybe you'd realise its not always me in the wrong. bye.

I feel like I only know you this much. Don't blame me when I go, because friends aren't suppose to know only this much about each other, what more best friends. Let's just not be friends anymore. Sorry maybe I'm not cool enough for you.

You put me up in flames, my love for you is never ending and forever burning. Baby, you're irresistable.

ohshucks, dont come near to me tmr. im germy. yuck. ): waterguns are fun, scrubbing the pond aint that bad, and algae is slipperly and kinda gross. haha. absolut tmr! :D we so totally rock P(: okay, off to squish shit into my brain. kbyebye.

You make me confused. You make my heart flutter for one moment and the next it's on the floor beating for you. Why bring my hopes up and send them crashing down? Why make me crave for you? To lay my lips on yours, to hold you so closely I could smell you forever. I'm confused, I'm drunk. Drunk in love. Because of you. You make me go sky rocket up to that beautiful sky.

prelims are so coming. byebyebyeeeeeee.

Hey baby,
I'll tell you I love you not only for who you are, but also because of what you make me feel when I'm with you. It's indescribable. A nice tingly feeling, a nice warm sensation. I don't really know, but I hope you feel it too. It's almost like magic, it's almost like the stardust from that beautiful sky you and I both stare into every night. It's so amazing, I wonder where I got all this luck from. I love you, inside out.
Love, me.

i love videoworldgang. :D we spend like almost all our time there everyday. HAHA. then 'study' then home home homeee! its like videoworld become our second home already can. HAHA. but yeah, i think im happy with them(: ohwell, k prelims are so near trying to kill us. and yeah after prelims its three weeks and olevels. they must be out to get us or something. hmm. HAHA. k i officially hate those weirdos that exist in our school. i wonder why on earth were we so unlucky. sigh. HAHA. k another less than 3months and yay hurray we're gone. im actually looking forward to prom. HAHA. ohwell. kbye, off to squish more shit into my brain! (:

Please pray that the fever will stay away. I wanna go to school on monday to see you. Because I feel like I haven't seen that familiar face in a million years. No matter even if my head were to explode, or my heart beating in pain, I just want Monday to come now so that I can see you. Sometimes I get tired of telling you how I feel, because it seems like you don't even care anymore. Sometimes it feels like I'm talking to to the wall, or better still. Myself. I'm crying myself silly, and I don't know where all these tears come from. Probably from all the bottling of everything, or maybe, just somewhere I never knew could store all these tears. I wanna have my hands on your waist, my lips on yours. But all these people just come crashing into my head, pulling you away from me. They're eating my insides out, and I don't wish to control anymore of these. It's not whether you like them or not, it's the fact that you can talk to them and not me. Do you mean to say that I mean less than them and because I'll definitely reply even if you reply later, that's why you rather talk to them? It's stupid and immature, but it's just getting to me. Slowly, they're stealing every little fragment of that small broken heart of mine, and throwing it into the dumpster, then laughing at it. Just that you don't know. Because I'm tired of telling you, I hide everything. Letting them steal me away day by day, wasting away waiting for you to care and love me.

You made my heart skip a beat,
You blew my mind away with a single glance.
I hope you mean it,
There won't be anymore chances.

My heart can only break this much. I was so scared my dear, my heart nearly stopped when I thought about that saturday, that sunday. I never ever want that to ever happen, because baby I need you so much.