Electrifying?

Mm, prelims are rather shitteh. But what the heck. K me is sleepy and me shall sleep soon. You bored people there that are still online should get some sleep too. Tsk. Haha, kbye.

Kiss me by the swing, will you?

Daf is awesome. :D Haha, don't sad when we go! Promise you our holiday datesss! (: Mm, late for duty again. Omg. Haha, had like ten missed calls. Sorry! :/ Haha I was falling asleep during church. And smiling myself silly. Heh(: The guy beside me weird-looked me): But, what the heck. Haha. AHHHHHH. Olevel MEP next thursday and friday. Omg wish me luck. Going through another two more weeks of yucky block periods and study break. Mm. Haha and today I realised, that our school is mad. No school in Singapore except ours have one period for about TWO hours. It's absolutely insane, and stupid. Especially in the bloody hall with no aircon. Sigh. Mm shitass, 29 more days to Os. I'm looking forward to Miss Ang's wedding. I'm looking forward to going to JC. But part of me wanna remain in TK. K studying time now. Byebye.

It's been a month, how have you been? I know I've been missing you a hell lot.

Mm, prelims are like finally over. But woah, exactly one month to Olevels. Some papers have been alright, some have been rather shitty but we'll still work hard no matter what. We're quite near freedom! So lets just work hard yeah. (: And woohooooo, next sat is Miss Ang's wedding! Heh, I couple-ing with Joemin! (: It's gonna be a blast. Yay! :D Kbye.

I could say that aircon was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we're hot, it keeps us cool.

I could say that lifts and elevators were the greatest inventions,

'Cause they carry us up a level or two when we're tired.

I could say that the bed was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we're sleepy, we can lie on it in comfort.

I could say that a pen was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could write many love letters for you with it.

I could say a toilet bowl was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we need to answer nature's call, it's available.

I could say that the internet was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could surf it for information.

I could say that a diary was the greatest invention,

'Cause when I feel like writing my innermost thoughts, I could, anytime.

I could say that MSN was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could talk to you online all day long.

I could say that a handphone was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could text you in the middle of the night and not get caught.

I could say all these were the greatest inventions ever,

But to me, you're the greatest creation ever.

Because you were created, I can love you.

I can have you love me,

I can have you be there for me.

I can have you make me smile,

Make me smile like no one can.

By yours truly.

Woke up late for duty at church today): But not that late la(: Mm, Paradise band came to church today. Totally awesome! :D AHAHA, I ran for half an hour today. Better than nothing la. Haha. Yay tmr going for shopping! :D I'm actually quite excited. Haha. Okay byebye.

Woah, went to Ikea for dinner and to shop for furniture. Haha had a greatttttttt time! (: Brother and I went to sit on alot of the bouncy beds, saw alot of cool kitchens and houses in only less thatn 55metres square! So cool please. Haha. We took a rainbow coloured ball and started throwing around and annoyed my mummy the whole way. HAHAHA. I was like okay la, mother don't angryyyyyyyyy. then she was like, I don't know you and that boy! Go away go away! HAHA. Omg. Saw this cute hot bung. Omg. Haha and she looked my wayyyy. Oooooh(: Okay but no intentions! Mm yeah. Didn't ball in the end though): maybe on monday with Daf(: then shopping with Thahira, Shi and Amy! :D Ohohoh! Miss Ang inviting us to her weddingggg! How awesome is that(: Heeheeeeee(: Okay gotta sleep soon. Got HT duty tmr and I have to be at church at 830 in the morningggg. :/ k nightnight! (:

It would have been nice if you cared that I made an effort to care.

Bubbles and balloons, best remedy ever.

Webbing is fun(: Heh. To top off the chocolate and tiramisu cake, just add a little icing and maybe a strawberry or two. (: Mm k might be going to ball with daddy and my brother. And yay like finally I'm getting a haircut. This hair of mine, is going baddd. Haha xangaaa. Mmmm. (: Kbye.

Let me take one more photo of you to keep inside my tiny heart.

Had an awesome time with thahira, arra and asyiq! (: Mark the end of our prelims with a bang. Pity it rained. ): But we still had an awesome time. Went back to Vworld to slackkk! Haha. Truth or dare, is not one game you would wanna play. Haha. All the dares and all the truths, totally overwhelming. Haha. Mm, but we still had fun(: Omgggg! I can't wait to move out of here and move into my new houseeeeeeeeee! (: It's gonna be totally awesome. Heh, best part: my room's gonna be, PURPLEEEEEEEE! :D Haha k. Itssssss super late. Eyes almost halfclosed. So now I shall go to bed and sleep. Planning to sleep in tmr. I need my sleepppppppppppp. K byebye. No more many many last letters in the word. Just, bye.

And today I tasted the most yummylicious chocolate ever. Today ain't such a bad day. (:

And you know that I didn't like her then, and I don't like her now. And you just have to be the best of friends with her. Not that it matters whether you're friends with her or not, it just sucks to know you'll just do whatever I didn't like you to do last time the minute I'm gone. I'm empty and hollow. You just robbed the only beating thing inside of me. And I'm cold, hard, and empty. All because of you.

I walk home on a Monday, alone. And I start to wonder, where you were. Then I realised, you're no longer in my heart.

Amath wasn't all that bad. I'm awesomeeee(: Haha okay no laaa. Mm, geog is pretty much screwed, but what the heck. Tmr's chem paper2. I shall sleep super early today. Ended up asleep only at one last night. Mm. 41 days to Os? Haha man, I'm screwed up. Going to chiong later, and get my beauty sleep. My cousin says my eyes are black, and puffy. Ohgod): Daf so nice. She gave me a rainbow drawing for my wall since mummy doesn't allow rainbow painted room. Yay, I is happy, and I is love you Daf(: Remember k, you pinky promise me already so we must go do everything in the hols alright? (: K my eye is itching like crap. And today I woke up late for school): Mm, must seriously start sleeping early again. Haha. The hall should get some serious airconditioning. People in the middle are dying of heat, people at the side are dying of strong noisy wind blowing their papers away. What a school. Hmm. K I think I shall stop being a pig, and I shall go study. But my brain is like, fried :/ Mm k, I shall try. K another Yo Mama joke. Yo' mama's so fat, when she stepped on the weighing scale is said: Kids, one at a time! HAHAHA. Okay, again, not insulting anyone's mama! Mm. I hate people who spread shit abt nothing. Ain't got nothing better to do buddy? Mm, kbye.

Hold me close, and kiss me so tenderly. Just like you used to.
Just like you used to.

Ohmgod, I slept at five last night. Geog is absolutely killing me. Haha. Woke up at nine for church. Was like half asleep please. Haha. Mm, went to some interior designs place last night. Omg so nice okayyyyyy! It was like a showroom. I wanted to paint my room rainbow stripes but my mummy didn't allow): purple she also don't want compromise): I so sad okay): sigh, but Daf said she'll help me frame up many many pictures! (: Awesome muchhh :D Love you Daf. (: I absolutely love midnight calls. <33 Hmm, k off to finish off geog and amath and off to bed I go. I cant take this no more. Haha. I have panda eyes, just like my mummy): Kbye.

Haha, goodness. Feel so messed up. I thought I was fine with you saying hey, fine with you giving me a hug. I thought I got over it. But no, it just made me miss you the whole night. Slept at three? Man, having an AWESOME headache. I can't wait for tmr to come, I just want today to end. Os in six weeks? Shyat, I'm bloody screwed. K whatever, bye.

You smell so Goddamn good. Thank you for giving me a hug, I forgot how you felt like within my embrace.

Study date with Rara totally productiveee. Haha. I think. Mm, went to Galilee to eat. Yumyum(: My mother was talking rather strangely when I got home. She let me play psp, let me sleep, asked me what I wanted for dinner and she would cook or go and buy it. Like, woah. HAHA. She say I good girl cos I studied velli velli hard today. Haha, I should study harder more often. It's nice being treated like that. Haha. Mm, everytime I login to blogger I feel. F-ed up. Haha. K going to go chiong geogggg! Kbye(: PS, I detest liars to the core.

Yay Rara and I going MP library study tmrrrrr! :D Haha, Rara better watch your tongue ahhh. Cannot take advantageeee! HAHA. Mm, k I shall sleep cos I woke up at such s stupid time to study. Damn. Haha, alright dreamland, here I comeeeeeeeeeee(:

WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLL):< The first thing I did when I stepped into the house was to run for the phone cos the people in this stupid house ain't picking it up, and I banged like my toes on the corner of the wall. WHATTHEHELLLLL):< painful): Aw damnit. Sigh. K today was a very productive day. I woke up at seven, though I got like many many wakeup calls at 530 and six:/ HAHA. Did alot alot alot of chem, had nice bfast that my mummy cooked and Mcwings for lunch! :D Man, too much Macs in a few weeks. Shyat. Hmm. K I'm almost done with my sciences and maths. Next three days, reserved solely for geog. Ohmymama. Sigh. OH OH OH!!!!! Haha, my brother was telling me Yo Mama jokes this morn. Yo' Mama's so fat, I got lost walking around her. HAHA. Okay, sorry my bad. Not insulting anyone's mama! (: K dinner soon. Off to cramp more shyat into this miserably smallish brain of mine. Byeeeee(:

Haha, so much for disturbing posts. Mm, today couldn't have gotten any worse. Tmr will be better, I hope.

If I could be Superman, I'd carry you and fly around the whole world. If I could be an ant, I'd bring you tiny pieces of food evey single day. If I could be a horse, I'd ride you away to find your Prince Charming. If I could be a dolphin, I'd let you swim on me and forget all your troubles. If I could be a bed, I'd let you loll on my all day long. If I could be the beach, I'd let you leave your footsteps in me and listen to the waves crash. If I could be a car, I'd take you on a fast ride to Vegas. If I could be a star, I'd shine so ever brightly for you every single night. But then again, I wouldn't want to be anyone of anything else. Because I'm actually quite okay with me being me, 'cause only then I can love you. And I can have you love me back. I would never exchange you for anything else in the world, because there's nothing to exchange you for; You mean the world to me. You mean the whole entire world to me. You mean that much to me. Do you know that?

When you mean the world to me, what do I mean to you? Pretty much close to nothing, am I right? Don't lie, just keep it real. For I am tired of lies and empty promises, for I trust no one else no more. 'Cause you made me this way. And I hate you for teaching me this lesson, this lesson of which I can trust no one else but myself. I am tired of you, and I hate you. I hate you so very much, for making me love you.

Haha hey, today can't be such a bad day right? I'm gonna make it right again. Mm. But it can't get any worse from here. I woke up late for chem, and I had sucky piano. Man, why must I take MEP. It is sucky, and horrible. They should just let us drop instead of forcing it on us and making our going to be pretty cert of As and what nots pretty. Not ugleh with that C? Sigh. Going to study tmr. Mm, I had a great time yesterday. For like three hours. Well, at least three out of the twentyfour ain't all that bad(: My aim will be to make my day a little better each day. What for cry and hurt the whole entire day? My day can be a whole lot better, and so can all of yours. Smile, and make a difference. Tell yourself that today can't get any worse and tmr will be a better day. Believe(: Kbye.

As my dad drove the car past that road outside your place, that road I used to walk with you beside me, your hand in mine. I forgot how your hand feels like, was it cold and icy? Or was it warm and tingly? I miss that, I really do.

I'm going out to have some fun, and you ain't gonna start running a marathon in my mind again. Today, is going to be a happy day. Because I told myself to believe.

Unfinished business;
Sweet nothings;
Empty promises.

What I hate most, is that fast that I still love you and can't let go. I think about the beautiful times we shared, and now all I'm left with is just a bunch of memories. A bundle of memories that make you miss you, a stack of memories piling up more and more each day as I yearn for you. They say that feelings fade, but really. Am I of nothing to you? I tell myself I can't give you a chance every single minute of the day to make me cry. But you're just in my icy cold storage room of mine, this icy cold heart of mine. Stop switching on my water taps, I wanna stop crying for you.

Now I am 2 minus 1 which is also equivalent to nothing.

Everything's gonna be alright,
Everything's gonna be alright,
Everything's gonna be alright,
Be strong, Believe.
Even if you can't forget what they did to you.

It hurts to know that you're really happy, 'cause I haven't seen you smile and laugh like that in a really long time. It's like your familiar handwriting, just seems so foreign now. Forget my previous heart house owner, that's what they all say. But I just simply can't do it. It just pains more and more each day. I'm numb, and it sucks. Cause I have no idea what I wanna do no more, you're just in my mind the whole entire day. While I sit there wondering whether you'll be alright, while I sit there wondering whether you'll be happy, I sit there crying myself silly. Wondering, wondering whether you care about whether I'm alright. Then I ask myself, you must be tired from running through my mind the whole day, I should let you rest, but no. You just keep running through my mind, running away from me, running away from me with my tiny heart. I'm just numb, and I don't wanna hurt no more. I want to be able to go up to you and hug you, go up to you and hold your hand, go up to you and tell you you smell good. Every single thing I do or look at, I just get reminded of you. Do you think of me?