Hello, I chew.

2009-11-14T11:12:00.000+08:00

Catch me, I've moved.

2009-11-12T18:55:00.002+08:00

I miss my long hair. Haha.

Another day spent sitting the whole day doing stupid chem. Dang, I can't wait to stop studying. Haha. Hm, I had nice bfast, lunch and going to be dinner(: Awesome. K. Syiq was nice, I finally felt good, letting everything out. Ha. Hm, I've got lots of things to do. And so little time. Damn. K I shall watch my favourite show. Bleah. Kbye.

2009-11-11T19:35:00.002+08:00

I'm watching this super sad show now): It's so sad): Men cry for their dying wives, it's sad. Hm. I shall do more chem afterwards. And be a good girl. Did quite alot today. Feel quite achieved. (: I think I havebecome a gross tv pig. HAHA. I've been sitting and rotting at the sofa for quite alot of awhiles. Haha. I wanna go watch a sad movie and cry): Haha. Hm, what should I do? I'm at quite a loss. Okay nvm forget it. Kbyebye.

2009-11-11T11:58:00.005+08:00

That's why I say deviantart has awesome art. Cool photo from there okay! Haha.

I hate empty promises, I absolutely hate them. Omg I'm still dying of bloody cramps): This is upsetting. I think I'm going to do nothing today. Haha. I don't even feel like doing chem. Hm. Man I should stop being a lazy pig. I've been on the telly the whole of yesterday and today. I'm glad I slept super early yesterday. Sleep is good. (: I don't exactly know if you didn't call back cause you didn't know I called, or you just chose to not call back. I'm at a loss. Hm. I'm going to the beach with my brother on Saturday! :D Yay! (: I feel like running today. Heh. Kbye.

2009-11-10T17:02:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. Tell me if I did anything wrong?

Ha, and now I can say, I have only one paper left. Yay! Is this awesome or what. (: Omg, the bananas the school gave for refreshments were totally awesome. Not too ripe or unripe, it was just nice(: Yay to yummy bananas! :D Ohoh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE! And I mean amy btw. HAHA. Hello meee! Must always greet me back with a hello you okay! Love youuu:D I can't wait for Os to be overrrr! :D Hm, I can almost say I hate you, but I know I don't. I shall go to prom happy. In a nice pretty dress. Yay(: Darsh got her dress alreadyyyy! So fast. Haha. Went to parkway with Darsh and Rahmah after physics. Totally unplanned for. But thanks to hungry Darshini, Rahmah and I got free swensens icecreammm! Yay! (: Her treat. Heh, totally awesome. (: So many things going on, I don't know what to do anymore. Fever go away. Sleep come back. OhGod, I'm like sleeping at one plus every night. I lie awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, or in Mrs. Liew's terms, at air molecules. Hm. I hate being awake and alone. Stupid exams, me is want my phone backk): Omg, I got like 50k in the Klondike in my ipod. I didn't know earning money could be so simple. Yay! :D Haha. Hm, I miss my section. ): Jackie says we're going back on monday to celebrate the juniors' birthdays! Yay I'm excited(: And i have realised that I've typed a total of 6 Yays. I think I'm getting high. Yay!! :D Hm, or maybe secretly it's just a fake front. Hm. Prom's theme is like: Glitterati and some shiny thing. Omg, err, it's like weird. HAHA. I WANT BUBBLESSSSSS): I shall go buy them. AND YAY! :D I bought nice stickers yesterday when I went out with syiq to popular. Nice cute poppy stickers. I shall share them, and share the joy too. (: Hm, Petrina wrote me a letter. I got sad reading it): I hate DMS. DuringMS. ): SUCKS. ): I get cranky, and emotional, and yucky. Me is no like being emotional. I don't like tears): Hm. I shall find the courage to explain everything to you. I shall find the courage to apologise. Maybe being alone is better, or something. Hm, k I wanna go shower and smell nice and lie in bed, and sleep. And be happy. K. I'll update soon(:

2009-11-08T07:16:00.002+08:00

Man this forehead is burning up. Hopefully can take my geog on Monday. Hmm. And I tried so hard to convince myself you're not like her. But I failed, quite terribly. I can't wait for Os to be over. Lets actually go out to have a little fun. Or something. I never knew someone could ever feel this way. It sucks rather. Hmm. Don't feel like going for prom anymore. I wanna play with bubbles. I wanna go to the swing. I want a hug. I like my new room design. It's awesome. I like walking in the rain. I'm dying of cramps. Stupid period. I want to go for my picnic and M. Barrage. I want to do everything that I planned to do. I don't wanna cry no more. I want to go cuddle up in bed. Goodmorning.

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way.
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change.

2009-11-07T13:21:00.002+08:00

One more week, I can't wait.

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover.
I loved you forever, forever is over.

2009-11-02T18:33:00.001+08:00

I want a hug please and thank you.

2009-10-31T08:16:00.001+08:00

Baby, I wish I had a time machine to turn back the clock.

2009-10-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

I'm not quite sure what you mean.
You make me feel like you are a hell lot better without me.
I want to feel like I don't need you either.

2009-10-25T20:21:00.003+08:00

Give me one balloon, and I'll give you a smile and a hug. Give me seventeen balloons, and I'll give you a smile, a hug, a kiss, and more smiles, and more hugs, and more kisses, and more happy screams. (: Balloons, make me absolutely happy. Alright, I'll be disappearing for three whole weeks! I'll be back soon. Lovelove. (:

2009-10-24T14:25:00.004+08:00

So much for the people you think will never ever do things to you. I'm starting to think, you're doing this on purpose, and I hate you for it.

Heyho, just had chem and math. I am careless like shit): K nvm, I shall go mug. Goodluck to the sec fours that are lazy like me and are online now. Haha, alright. Bye. Ha, and you used to say, it's never goodbye and only goodnight baby.

2009-10-17T15:56:00.003+08:00

Damn, Os in a week's time. K off to study. Please stop it. Why can't we just be normal friends? We don't have to fight all the time over rubbish. I've already let you go, and let you study for your exams. Don't do this to me anymore. I wanna study hard, and not give a shit abt you. Maybe we'll actually talk like normal friends one day. I hope. Or something. Kbye.

2009-10-16T05:54:00.004+08:00

Hello you! It's bloody hell six in the morning. Damn. Haha. Well think I wont be going school the whole of next week. Just gonna chiong everything I can. I've got a feeling, for geog. Haha. It's gonna be good. (: Damn, I hate you. I can't wait to move houseeeeeeee!! I can't wait for Os to be over. I want it over now now NOWWW! Maybe P and I will go out at 0905 on 1311 to shout, I"M FREE BAYBEHHH! But then again, maybe not. We'll be looking like psychopaths. Haha. Man I miss band. Hello section, if you're reading this, PLEASE PLEASE plan a nice section outing. (: I want picnic at M. Barrage): I want so many things. I want you to disappear from the face of this earth. K think I'll go pack my bag or so. Kbye(:

And you know that I'll protect you, all through thick and thin. Until the end.

2009-10-08T18:08:00.004+08:00

Hm, k tmr's like the last day for sec fours. Then study break for two weeks. And then its our dooms day. K crap, this ain't getting any better. Got a hell lot of crap to do. ): Had extra chinese today, it was so cold. ): Zoe was nice. Haha. I want so many things. I want Olevels to over now. I want to go to the beach. I want to go to the swing. I want to blow bubbles. I want to play with sparklers. I want to go swing my legs at the bus stop. I want many many helium balloons. I want to eat ice cream. I want to see you tmr. I want to play bball. I want to give everybody a hug tmr. I want to cook. I want to hold your hand. I want to sleep. I want so many things. I must be insane. K off to do more yucky stufffffff. ): Lets have a garage sale after O's! (: Kbyebye.

And if the milky way was a shopping mall, I'd buy all the stars I could possibly afford.

2009-09-28T23:13:00.001+08:00

Electrifying?

Mm, prelims are rather shitteh. But what the heck. K me is sleepy and me shall sleep soon. You bored people there that are still online should get some sleep too. Tsk. Haha, kbye.

2009-09-27T16:16:00.004+08:00

Kiss me by the swing, will you?

Daf is awesome. :D Haha, don't sad when we go! Promise you our holiday datesss! (: Mm, late for duty again. Omg. Haha, had like ten missed calls. Sorry! :/ Haha I was falling asleep during church. And smiling myself silly. Heh(: The guy beside me weird-looked me): But, what the heck. Haha. AHHHHHH. Olevel MEP next thursday and friday. Omg wish me luck. Going through another two more weeks of yucky block periods and study break. Mm. Haha and today I realised, that our school is mad. No school in Singapore except ours have one period for about TWO hours. It's absolutely insane, and stupid. Especially in the bloody hall with no aircon. Sigh. Mm shitass, 29 more days to Os. I'm looking forward to Miss Ang's wedding. I'm looking forward to going to JC. But part of me wanna remain in TK. K studying time now. Byebye.

2009-09-26T15:43:00.007+08:00

It's been a month, how have you been? I know I've been missing you a hell lot.

Mm, prelims are like finally over. But woah, exactly one month to Olevels. Some papers have been alright, some have been rather shitty but we'll still work hard no matter what. We're quite near freedom! So lets just work hard yeah. (: And woohooooo, next sat is Miss Ang's wedding! Heh, I couple-ing with Joemin! (: It's gonna be a blast. Yay! :D Kbye.

I could say that aircon was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we're hot, it keeps us cool.

I could say that lifts and elevators were the greatest inventions,

'Cause they carry us up a level or two when we're tired.

I could say that the bed was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we're sleepy, we can lie on it in comfort.

I could say that a pen was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could write many love letters for you with it.

I could say a toilet bowl was the greatest invention,

'Cause when we need to answer nature's call, it's available.

I could say that the internet was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could surf it for information.

I could say that a diary was the greatest invention,

'Cause when I feel like writing my innermost thoughts, I could, anytime.

I could say that MSN was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could talk to you online all day long.

I could say that a handphone was the greatest invention,

'Cause I could text you in the middle of the night and not get caught.

I could say all these were the greatest inventions ever,

But to me, you're the greatest creation ever.

Because you were created, I can love you.

I can have you love me,

I can have you be there for me.

I can have you make me smile,

Make me smile like no one can.

By yours truly.

2009-09-20T18:48:00.002+08:00

Woke up late for duty at church today): But not that late la(: Mm, Paradise band came to church today. Totally awesome! :D AHAHA, I ran for half an hour today. Better than nothing la. Haha. Yay tmr going for shopping! :D I'm actually quite excited. Haha. Okay byebye.

2009-09-20T00:26:00.009+08:00

Woah, went to Ikea for dinner and to shop for furniture. Haha had a greatttttttt time! (: Brother and I went to sit on alot of the bouncy beds, saw alot of cool kitchens and houses in only less thatn 55metres square! So cool please. Haha. We took a rainbow coloured ball and started throwing around and annoyed my mummy the whole way. HAHAHA. I was like okay la, mother don't angryyyyyyyyy. then she was like, I don't know you and that boy! Go away go away! HAHA. Omg. Saw this cute hot bung. Omg. Haha and she looked my wayyyy. Oooooh(: Okay but no intentions! Mm yeah. Didn't ball in the end though): maybe on monday with Daf(: then shopping with Thahira, Shi and Amy! :D Ohohoh! Miss Ang inviting us to her weddingggg! How awesome is that(: Heeheeeeee(: Okay gotta sleep soon. Got HT duty tmr and I have to be at church at 830 in the morningggg. :/ k nightnight! (:

It would have been nice if you cared that I made an effort to care.

2009-09-19T17:03:00.007+08:00

Bubbles and balloons, best remedy ever.

Webbing is fun(: Heh. To top off the chocolate and tiramisu cake, just add a little icing and maybe a strawberry or two. (: Mm k might be going to ball with daddy and my brother. And yay like finally I'm getting a haircut. This hair of mine, is going baddd. Haha xangaaa. Mmmm. (: Kbye.

2009-09-19T00:14:00.005+08:00

Let me take one more photo of you to keep inside my tiny heart.

Had an awesome time with thahira, arra and asyiq! (: Mark the end of our prelims with a bang. Pity it rained. ): But we still had an awesome time. Went back to Vworld to slackkk! Haha. Truth or dare, is not one game you would wanna play. Haha. All the dares and all the truths, totally overwhelming. Haha. Mm, but we still had fun(: Omgggg! I can't wait to move out of here and move into my new houseeeeeeeeee! (: It's gonna be totally awesome. Heh, best part: my room's gonna be, PURPLEEEEEEEE! :D Haha k. Itssssss super late. Eyes almost halfclosed. So now I shall go to bed and sleep. Planning to sleep in tmr. I need my sleepppppppppppp. K byebye. No more many many last letters in the word. Just, bye.

And today I tasted the most yummylicious chocolate ever. Today ain't such a bad day. (:

2009-09-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

And you know that I didn't like her then, and I don't like her now. And you just have to be the best of friends with her. Not that it matters whether you're friends with her or not, it just sucks to know you'll just do whatever I didn't like you to do last time the minute I'm gone. I'm empty and hollow. You just robbed the only beating thing inside of me. And I'm cold, hard, and empty. All because of you.

2009-09-14T17:58:00.002+08:00

I walk home on a Monday, alone. And I start to wonder, where you were. Then I realised, you're no longer in my heart.

Amath wasn't all that bad. I'm awesomeeee(: Haha okay no laaa. Mm, geog is pretty much screwed, but what the heck. Tmr's chem paper2. I shall sleep super early today. Ended up asleep only at one last night. Mm. 41 days to Os? Haha man, I'm screwed up. Going to chiong later, and get my beauty sleep. My cousin says my eyes are black, and puffy. Ohgod): Daf so nice. She gave me a rainbow drawing for my wall since mummy doesn't allow rainbow painted room. Yay, I is happy, and I is love you Daf(: Remember k, you pinky promise me already so we must go do everything in the hols alright? (: K my eye is itching like crap. And today I woke up late for school): Mm, must seriously start sleeping early again. Haha. The hall should get some serious airconditioning. People in the middle are dying of heat, people at the side are dying of strong noisy wind blowing their papers away. What a school. Hmm. K I think I shall stop being a pig, and I shall go study. But my brain is like, fried :/ Mm k, I shall try. K another Yo Mama joke. Yo' mama's so fat, when she stepped on the weighing scale is said: Kids, one at a time! HAHAHA. Okay, again, not insulting anyone's mama! Mm. I hate people who spread shit abt nothing. Ain't got nothing better to do buddy? Mm, kbye.

Hold me close, and kiss me so tenderly. Just like you used to.
Just like you used to.

2009-09-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

Ohmgod, I slept at five last night. Geog is absolutely killing me. Haha. Woke up at nine for church. Was like half asleep please. Haha. Mm, went to some interior designs place last night. Omg so nice okayyyyyy! It was like a showroom. I wanted to paint my room rainbow stripes but my mummy didn't allow): purple she also don't want compromise): I so sad okay): sigh, but Daf said she'll help me frame up many many pictures! (: Awesome muchhh :D Love you Daf. (: I absolutely love midnight calls. <33 Hmm, k off to finish off geog and amath and off to bed I go. I cant take this no more. Haha. I have panda eyes, just like my mummy): Kbye.

2009-09-12T17:39:00.000+08:00

Haha, goodness. Feel so messed up. I thought I was fine with you saying hey, fine with you giving me a hug. I thought I got over it. But no, it just made me miss you the whole night. Slept at three? Man, having an AWESOME headache. I can't wait for tmr to come, I just want today to end. Os in six weeks? Shyat, I'm bloody screwed. K whatever, bye.

2009-09-11T23:30:00.002+08:00

You smell so Goddamn good. Thank you for giving me a hug, I forgot how you felt like within my embrace.

2009-09-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

Study date with Rara totally productiveee. Haha. I think. Mm, went to Galilee to eat. Yumyum(: My mother was talking rather strangely when I got home. She let me play psp, let me sleep, asked me what I wanted for dinner and she would cook or go and buy it. Like, woah. HAHA. She say I good girl cos I studied velli velli hard today. Haha, I should study harder more often. It's nice being treated like that. Haha. Mm, everytime I login to blogger I feel. F-ed up. Haha. K going to go chiong geogggg! Kbye(: PS, I detest liars to the core.

2009-09-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

Yay Rara and I going MP library study tmrrrrr! :D Haha, Rara better watch your tongue ahhh. Cannot take advantageeee! HAHA. Mm, k I shall sleep cos I woke up at such s stupid time to study. Damn. Haha, alright dreamland, here I comeeeeeeeeeee(:

2009-09-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLL):< The first thing I did when I stepped into the house was to run for the phone cos the people in this stupid house ain't picking it up, and I banged like my toes on the corner of the wall. WHATTHEHELLLLL):< painful): Aw damnit. Sigh. K today was a very productive day. I woke up at seven, though I got like many many wakeup calls at 530 and six:/ HAHA. Did alot alot alot of chem, had nice bfast that my mummy cooked and Mcwings for lunch! :D Man, too much Macs in a few weeks. Shyat. Hmm. K I'm almost done with my sciences and maths. Next three days, reserved solely for geog. Ohmymama. Sigh. OH OH OH!!!!! Haha, my brother was telling me Yo Mama jokes this morn. Yo' Mama's so fat, I got lost walking around her. HAHA. Okay, sorry my bad. Not insulting anyone's mama! (: K dinner soon. Off to cramp more shyat into this miserably smallish brain of mine. Byeeeee(:

2009-09-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

Haha, so much for disturbing posts. Mm, today couldn't have gotten any worse. Tmr will be better, I hope.

2009-09-08T15:30:00.001+08:00

If I could be Superman, I'd carry you and fly around the whole world. If I could be an ant, I'd bring you tiny pieces of food evey single day. If I could be a horse, I'd ride you away to find your Prince Charming. If I could be a dolphin, I'd let you swim on me and forget all your troubles. If I could be a bed, I'd let you loll on my all day long. If I could be the beach, I'd let you leave your footsteps in me and listen to the waves crash. If I could be a car, I'd take you on a fast ride to Vegas. If I could be a star, I'd shine so ever brightly for you every single night. But then again, I wouldn't want to be anyone of anything else. Because I'm actually quite okay with me being me, 'cause only then I can love you. And I can have you love me back. I would never exchange you for anything else in the world, because there's nothing to exchange you for; You mean the world to me. You mean the whole entire world to me. You mean that much to me. Do you know that?

When you mean the world to me, what do I mean to you? Pretty much close to nothing, am I right? Don't lie, just keep it real. For I am tired of lies and empty promises, for I trust no one else no more. 'Cause you made me this way. And I hate you for teaching me this lesson, this lesson of which I can trust no one else but myself. I am tired of you, and I hate you. I hate you so very much, for making me love you.

Haha hey, today can't be such a bad day right? I'm gonna make it right again. Mm. But it can't get any worse from here. I woke up late for chem, and I had sucky piano. Man, why must I take MEP. It is sucky, and horrible. They should just let us drop instead of forcing it on us and making our going to be pretty cert of As and what nots pretty. Not ugleh with that C? Sigh. Going to study tmr. Mm, I had a great time yesterday. For like three hours. Well, at least three out of the twentyfour ain't all that bad(: My aim will be to make my day a little better each day. What for cry and hurt the whole entire day? My day can be a whole lot better, and so can all of yours. Smile, and make a difference. Tell yourself that today can't get any worse and tmr will be a better day. Believe(: Kbye.

2009-09-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

As my dad drove the car past that road outside your place, that road I used to walk with you beside me, your hand in mine. I forgot how your hand feels like, was it cold and icy? Or was it warm and tingly? I miss that, I really do.

2009-09-05T11:54:00.001+08:00

I'm going out to have some fun, and you ain't gonna start running a marathon in my mind again. Today, is going to be a happy day. Because I told myself to believe.

2009-09-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

Unfinished business;
Sweet nothings;
Empty promises.

What I hate most, is that fast that I still love you and can't let go. I think about the beautiful times we shared, and now all I'm left with is just a bunch of memories. A bundle of memories that make you miss you, a stack of memories piling up more and more each day as I yearn for you. They say that feelings fade, but really. Am I of nothing to you? I tell myself I can't give you a chance every single minute of the day to make me cry. But you're just in my icy cold storage room of mine, this icy cold heart of mine. Stop switching on my water taps, I wanna stop crying for you.

2009-09-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

Now I am 2 minus 1 which is also equivalent to nothing.

Everything's gonna be alright,
Everything's gonna be alright,
Everything's gonna be alright,
Be strong, Believe.
Even if you can't forget what they did to you.

It hurts to know that you're really happy, 'cause I haven't seen you smile and laugh like that in a really long time. It's like your familiar handwriting, just seems so foreign now. Forget my previous heart house owner, that's what they all say. But I just simply can't do it. It just pains more and more each day. I'm numb, and it sucks. Cause I have no idea what I wanna do no more, you're just in my mind the whole entire day. While I sit there wondering whether you'll be alright, while I sit there wondering whether you'll be happy, I sit there crying myself silly. Wondering, wondering whether you care about whether I'm alright. Then I ask myself, you must be tired from running through my mind the whole day, I should let you rest, but no. You just keep running through my mind, running away from me, running away from me with my tiny heart. I'm just numb, and I don't wanna hurt no more. I want to be able to go up to you and hug you, go up to you and hold your hand, go up to you and tell you you smell good. Every single thing I do or look at, I just get reminded of you. Do you think of me?

2009-08-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

You promised you'll come back, so I'll wait.

2009-08-27T05:36:00.000+08:00

I'm awake so early in the morning and crying. I dreamt of you and was crying. Like I haven't been crying enough for the whole entire day. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what went wrong with me. I wanna be strong and show you I don't need you, but you and I both know. I'm crumbling inside as I watch you leave. And you just don't care no more.

2009-08-26T21:37:00.001+08:00

I guess it's just cause I chose to give you a chance when you said you needed me. I guess I just laid out my heart on the road to nowhere, giving you a chance to step on it over and over again. Someone said when you like someone, you know why. But when you love someone, you have no idea why. I don't know if this was ever love, but to me. It was. And I thank you for it. For I never knew love was something so beautiful. And even as I let you go, I'll tell you that I love you. Just tell me, did I do something wrong?

2009-08-23T20:35:00.000+08:00

had a fantastic time at ziling's place last nighttttt(: awesomeee. :D HAHA. just slacked around and stuff but it felt good(: watched family guy. HAHAHA. stewie. HAHAHA. rahmah. HAHAHA. okay nvm inside joke. hmm. okay balling again tmrrrr! :D but liyana and putri fasting so cannot): hmm. but we'll see how. pray that i wont get injured again. HAHAHA. okay bye(:

2009-08-22T18:48:00.001+08:00

Let me tell you my love story. It felt like love at first sight. I let my heart skip so many beats everytime she turned to smile or wave at me. I let my heart melt over and over again everytime she hugged or kissed me. Oh those lips of hers; the last time I remembered tasting them, it was like strawberry icing on my birthday cake; oh how I want to taste those very lips again. I loved her, with my whole heart. But maybe it wasn't enough. She never seemed satisfied anymore, no matter how hard I tried, or how I never tried. She just seemed to fade away, she just seemed to stop loving me. I told myself she still did, but I think I was just living in a big fat facade. She broke this tiny heart of mine when she let go, and now I'm letting go of the small fragments it was broken into. The small fragments I held on so tightly when you smashed my heart. Maybe someone will come, maybe someone will catch it. Maybe, just maybe, someone will make an effort to mend it. But for now, I just don't believe in love no more.

so sad rightttt! ): haha. hmm, i slept for like less than three hours today. omg. like from three to five plus. then sleep abit more then late for tuition. HAHAHA. ohwell. thanks you Mr. Happy for making me happy(: hmm.

2009-08-20T17:04:00.000+08:00

The ring of your laughter sounds so foreign, and 'Why did I let you slip away?' I wonder.

Stupid amy cheated my feelings): I woke up late and rushed to school. And she wasn't even in class. But I got a hug in the end(: Balling was horrible omg. I kena hit like so many times. Totally disoreinted. Damn. And I tripped over putri's legs on the floor my head hit. And stupid cheryl phong had to throw the stupid ball at the other side of my head. Damn, today has really got to be the suckiest day. Why did you have to make it awkward? Or was it just my mind doing funny things to me? Hmm, I really wonder. Tmr's english paper. Greatttttt. I'm just really glad this week is coming to an end, it was not exactly one of my best weeks. Alright, bye.

Bring me to that place you said had nothing bad existing in it. I don't want to stay here no more, where there are tears and broken hearts. I don't want to stay here no more.

2009-08-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

I was just reading back. Hmm, it really did seem like yesterday. And today, I don't know you no more. And you know, it hurts to see you walk by and not say hi.

yay balling with classmates tmr during recess. gosh, balling is like totally the in thing right now. heh(: and im so totally getting a tan(: YAYYYYY! okay. haha. damn, today's mep was total crap. and ew, guys who take mep are totally gross. barbaric, and girls from cedar. hmm. HAHA. i didnt know they could walk so slutty-ish. total yuckness. damn. i think i shall remove my eyeballs and boil them. cleanse them man. HAHA. damn, i feel like talking to amy tmr at bball court tmr morn and she has to have stupid meeting): damn you meetings): prefectsssssssss, stop having meetings): but maybe i might make an effort to wake up earlier to go school talk to her. since i'm feeling nice(: HAHA. hmm, k gotta go cramp stupid things into this tiny brain. BYEBYEEEEEEE!

And baby, when i'm with you, its like i'm in a whole new world. Where nothing can stand between you and me.

2009-08-17T16:47:00.001+08:00

Damn, why the fuck is it eating my insides?

2009-08-16T21:14:00.001+08:00

Why, you're welcome. Thank you very much as well.

And Dory said, 'Don't go. I remember things better with you. I remember. I know I do. It's in here somewhere. Cause when I look at you, I become a whole. I don't want to go. Cause I don't want to forget.'

Ohmygod, prelims are like next week. Ew and guess what we start with. Yucky mep. Damn. Since when do exams spread across three weeks?! Alright, let's do this right. Bye!

2009-08-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

Oh wow. Surprise me again.

2009-08-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

If you can not care about the fact that we aren't friends, then I'll make the effort to not let that fact eat me inside out.
If you can not reply me, I'll make the effort not to text you again.

Why am I breaking inside? Why do you have to make it so difficult for me? True I did let you down, but is it really neccesary to make it so difficult? Why not just take my heart, and stab it repeatedly? Physical pain ain't that bad, because at least I know it'll all end when it stops beating, I know it'll all be over and there won't be pain no more. Putting up a fake front to show you I'm happy without you is tiring. And now I give up. Laugh over it, it's alright. Because at least my feelings are real. And I tell you upfront. Not go behind your back and ask your classmates whether you bitched about me.

2009-08-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

But you dont have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore;

I'm sorry for every wrong I ever did to you. But I'm human, I get tired of picking up your slack at times. I'm no robot, I don't run on oil 24/7. Please take care. Goodbye now. Thank you for being my friend.

2009-08-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

Because when you told me you cared, I chose to believe you.

2009-08-09T19:44:00.001+08:00

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been givin' out chances everytime
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long baby
But I figured you out
And you think it would be fine again
But not this time around;
You're not sorry.

ohmygod, i so wanna use my mc all the way till wednesday. the flu is gross, the coughing isn't planning to stop any sooner. and my ear feels like i just stuffed chili padis into it, definitely on fire, and in pain. damn, i didn't know being sick would suck so badly. ohwell, anyway, happy national day! yeah. take care you, i hope maybe you'd realise its not always me in the wrong. bye.

2009-08-08T21:51:00.001+08:00

I feel like I only know you this much. Don't blame me when I go, because friends aren't suppose to know only this much about each other, what more best friends. Let's just not be friends anymore. Sorry maybe I'm not cool enough for you.

2009-08-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

You put me up in flames, my love for you is never ending and forever burning. Baby, you're irresistable.

ohshucks, dont come near to me tmr. im germy. yuck. ): waterguns are fun, scrubbing the pond aint that bad, and algae is slipperly and kinda gross. haha. absolut tmr! :D we so totally rock P(: okay, off to squish shit into my brain. kbyebye.

2009-08-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

You make me confused. You make my heart flutter for one moment and the next it's on the floor beating for you. Why bring my hopes up and send them crashing down? Why make me crave for you? To lay my lips on yours, to hold you so closely I could smell you forever. I'm confused, I'm drunk. Drunk in love. Because of you. You make me go sky rocket up to that beautiful sky.

prelims are so coming. byebyebyeeeeeee.

2009-08-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

Hey baby,
I'll tell you I love you not only for who you are, but also because of what you make me feel when I'm with you. It's indescribable. A nice tingly feeling, a nice warm sensation. I don't really know, but I hope you feel it too. It's almost like magic, it's almost like the stardust from that beautiful sky you and I both stare into every night. It's so amazing, I wonder where I got all this luck from. I love you, inside out.
Love, me.

i love videoworldgang. :D we spend like almost all our time there everyday. HAHA. then 'study' then home home homeee! its like videoworld become our second home already can. HAHA. but yeah, i think im happy with them(: ohwell, k prelims are so near trying to kill us. and yeah after prelims its three weeks and olevels. they must be out to get us or something. hmm. HAHA. k i officially hate those weirdos that exist in our school. i wonder why on earth were we so unlucky. sigh. HAHA. k another less than 3months and yay hurray we're gone. im actually looking forward to prom. HAHA. ohwell. kbye, off to squish more shit into my brain! (:

2009-08-02T16:20:00.001+08:00

Please pray that the fever will stay away. I wanna go to school on monday to see you. Because I feel like I haven't seen that familiar face in a million years. No matter even if my head were to explode, or my heart beating in pain, I just want Monday to come now so that I can see you. Sometimes I get tired of telling you how I feel, because it seems like you don't even care anymore. Sometimes it feels like I'm talking to to the wall, or better still. Myself. I'm crying myself silly, and I don't know where all these tears come from. Probably from all the bottling of everything, or maybe, just somewhere I never knew could store all these tears. I wanna have my hands on your waist, my lips on yours. But all these people just come crashing into my head, pulling you away from me. They're eating my insides out, and I don't wish to control anymore of these. It's not whether you like them or not, it's the fact that you can talk to them and not me. Do you mean to say that I mean less than them and because I'll definitely reply even if you reply later, that's why you rather talk to them? It's stupid and immature, but it's just getting to me. Slowly, they're stealing every little fragment of that small broken heart of mine, and throwing it into the dumpster, then laughing at it. Just that you don't know. Because I'm tired of telling you, I hide everything. Letting them steal me away day by day, wasting away waiting for you to care and love me.

2009-08-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

You made my heart skip a beat,
You blew my mind away with a single glance.
I hope you mean it,
There won't be anymore chances.

My heart can only break this much. I was so scared my dear, my heart nearly stopped when I thought about that saturday, that sunday. I never ever want that to ever happen, because baby I need you so much.

2009-07-25T18:27:00.004+08:00

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything and two minus one equals nothing.

ohgod, blogger's being an ass and refusing to upload my pictures again. ):

goodluck to all the people having exams next week! :D toobad, sec fours are like enjoyingggg! (: HAHA okay no la. we down there busy preparing for like stupid prelims): damn prelims. they suck): off to study more shitzzz): kbye(:

2009-07-18T18:05:00.003+08:00

_l_ ( sorry its vulgar)

Why do you go all the time even when you said you wouldnt? Why don't you say bye before you go? I'm clinging onto my phone like it's my dear life, just hoping you'll reply. Sorry I'm such a burden to you. If you want to go, or want my to disappear, just tell me to. I will no matter how much my heart breaks.

2009-07-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Don't blame me when I let go, because I'm tired of hanging on. Time and time again, my fingers are aching from hanging from the cliff, my arms are weak. My heart is just broken. Where are you when I need you? I thought you would never go, but time again I see you turn your back on me. It's like my heart left with you, and for that split moment when my eyes got caught in the entanglement of yours, it was gone. And I'm alone now, heartless and cruel. Don't come annoy me, I'll probably slaughter you.

2009-07-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

I feel like I've falied somewhere, I just don't know where. Because I've loved you with all my heart and all my soul, I don't know what went wrong for it seems like it's not enough to make you love me back the same way.

2009-07-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

It's raining and I'm quivering. I'm not quite sure if its because of the cold, or because I'm afraid. I miss you. The cold makes me think of you. The cold makes me realise that you're not by my side, holding my hands to keep them warm. Telling me silly stuff to keep my mind off the cold. Then I wonder, where are you during this cold cold night. When I'm all alone, thinking of you. Shivering in the cold.

2009-06-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

i miss random senseless dedications.
i miss random letters and notes.
i miss long goodnight messages.
i miss alot of things, tell me why.

i had a great time today. thanks drey(:
ghosts or girlfriends past, lunch and home.
yeap.
love you girl.

kbye.

2009-06-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

hello!

i hate people who are annoying. RAWR. go away and dont annoy me. let yixuan use you as a mais to clean our classroom so miss yeo will never have to scold us again. i hate you plus the whole bunch of you. annoy me. RAWR. okay actually not annoy me, but annoy people around me, which actually indirectly annoy me. okay, lets stick back to the old thing. you all just really really, REALLY annoy me. go away.

anyway, today's a special day! :D

23rd and a tuesday! (:

heehee(:

i watched monsters vs aliens 3d just now! not that bad la, but definitely overpriced. heng ah not weekend. or definitely a rip off. HAHA. 3d glasses totally annoying though. i wanna watch so many many many moviesssss! ): rawr. i wanna watch upppppp!!!!! so many balloons): i also want okay): and drag me to hell. and ghosts of girlfriends past. and alot alot alot moreeeee): -wails terribly-

look at that. omg. i want that too. ):

Os suck. h1n1 sucks even more. no band for next two weeks. we're so going to the esplanade to make a fool of ourselves. brace yourself for a not very good performance if you're going. pray hard, very hard. that we wont screw up.

im going to be happy tmr, so im not going to be upset now. i shall go soon, and sleep. lack of sleep makes ngeeping an angry ngeeping. so go away, do not disturb me. goodbye.

2009-06-22T13:43:00.011+08:00

i still think about you.
i hope you're doing well up there with the mighty God.
i love you ahma.

hmm, today i didnt go for mep cos i woke up late. heh. HAHA. ohwell. holidays are coming to an endddddddd!!!! ): dont wanna go back to school): we've got stupid ir from the first day of school all the way to prelims okay. and of all subjects to start with, they have to choose chem. yuckkk. and dang, prelims are near as well. being sce four reeks like shit.

went to ahmah's grave on saturday. made some prayers and sang some praises. i miss her, so very much. ahma, we all still remember you and miss you very terribly. ):

i'll post again if i feel like it. goodbye.

2009-06-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

because i give up trying,

2009-06-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

i take a walk on that familiar pathway we used to take a walk on
alone; wishing you to be by my side.
walking with fingers interlaced,
imitating the stupid way i walk.

had band today. hsinyu came back! (: she was busy harrassing me. omg. HAHAHA. not my fault if i cannot come on friday): anyway lishan limelightttt! so yeah. i come or not also no difference! HAHA. but charelene and hsinyu both coming! ): hopefully my mother allows me to go): went for jiu gong's funeral. hope you're in heaven with the almighty God and in peace now. we promise to remember you always, in our heart.

make me feel a little more wanted, please? im afraid i'll sink all the way in and hurt myself ultimately. tell me im wrong. and that you'll pull me out. you mean the entire world to me. the whole entire world.

2009-06-13T19:41:00.003+08:00

hi!

audrey said bananas have a special chemical that makes you happy. i ate two, but im still upset. why?

i want to go to japan and share a room with you.
i want to go to the moon and fly around holding your hand.
i want to sit on the beach and watch the sun rise with you.
i want to hold onto you forever and never let go.
i want to do so many things, but i dont know if i can.
i dont know if i have the time.
i dont know if i can.

2009-06-12T16:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!!! -waves at you!-

haha okay random outburst of madness. the stupid period has finally decided to come. dont come near me okay? i'll kill you with one bite. i have massive sharp pretty teeth(:

and cheng told me jolene said section outing to vivo to watch monster vs aliens 3d. hmm. HAHA. for the sake of the being with my stupid juniors who i'd miss so much, i'd go. (: HAHAHA. and cheng promised she'll make it super duper memorableeeee! keep to your word ah(: HAHA.

k cramps are here to kill. and gosh, lets hope school closes. HAHA. pandemic 6 already you knowwww! lets all get swine flu and die. dont have to take olevels then. HAHA. but then again, what for when we've started studying our butts off already? sighhhhhhhhh. my daddy's got fever): i want fever too): i like fever. (: haha.

okay im bored. shall entertain myself. goodbyeeee! :D

2009-06-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

hello.

hickles! heehee. (:

physics spa was alright. i had time to do two. HAHA. the stupid hall with no air con had stupid big fans which kept making the papers fly. annoyingg! haha. tmr chem spa. go school for stupid one hour and go back home. HAHA. ohwell. the stupid things school makes us do.

sometimes you make me feel lousy. like im the worst person you ever want to be around. it hurts. im sorry.

k im flying away to dreamland soon cos im upset. goodnight.

2009-06-10T23:44:00.009+08:00

2009-06-09T22:18:00.004+08:00

hello im bored. lets check out the quiz i ripped from mee's blog. HAHA.

Name a friend from A to Z!
A: Audrey
B: Bibi
C: ChenFang
D: Danielle
E: audrEy
F: Fazlina
G: Gina
H: Hsin-Yu
I: ( none): )
J: Jolene
K: KaiNing
L: Lishan
M: Marilyn
N: Nava
O: Odelia
P: Pooja
Q: Qishan
R: Rahmah
S: Shruthi
T: Thahira
U: ( none): )
V: Vanessa
W: ( none): )
X: XiaoNan
Y: YiXuan
Z: ZiLing

1) Can R and S be together in BGR?
rahmah+shruthi NOOO. they're both girls. HAHA.

2) How is L related to you?
lishan stringbass juniorrrr! :D

3) Does Y know Z?
yixuan+ziling no. HAHA.

4) If C betrays you, will you kill her?
chenfang HAHA no she wont betray me please.

5) If T steals your boyfriend, what will you do?
thahira HAHAHA i'll stop being her bestfriend. HAHA.

6) If B tells you she/he has a crush on you, what will you do?
bibi HAHAHA laugh and laugh, and laugh somemore.

7) Will you and M ever get into a fight?
marilyn HAHA she tells me she hates me everyday, what do you think? HAHA.

8) Who does Z have a crush on?
ziling dunno, no one i guess?

9) If G calls you a bitch, what would you do?
gina probably laugh it off. but i dont think she'll be that evil. HAHA.

10) What is the relation between you and E?
audrEy HAHA this is why i put it here! (: my girlfriend laaa(:

11) What does S like?
shruthi shouting. HAHA. S likes to Shout! HAHA.

12) Who is I's best friend?
i dont have a friend who's name starts with I):

13) What colour does Y like?
yixuan probably red since she's always so angry. HAHA.

14) Where does F live?
fazlina i think kovan area. but i dont stalk her okayyyy! HAHA.

15) Did you and C have a fight before?
chenfang nope. we good cell mates(:

16) What can you say about T?
thahira ohh, i can say alot of "good" things. but i shall not(: she's a great bf! :D

17) If J tells you he/she has a crush on you?
jolene HAHA laugh my ass off. HAHA.

next survey also ripped. HAHA. i only taking some questions cos stupid mee's blog cannot copy paste): <

1) If you married the last person you texted, what will your last name be?
TAN TAN TANNNNN! :D

2) Were you happy when you woke up?
NO. my idiot brother was shrieking at me to wake up cos i was late): <

3) When were you last on the phone? And with who?
around four plus, with my piano teacher. HAHA.

4) What are you excited for?
thursday date with her! :D

5) What were you doing yesterday?
having school and stupid chinese tuition): <

6) Honestly, who was the last one who said i love you to you?
(: (: audrey tan! (:

7) What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
watermelon! i no more bananas):

8) Have a best friend?
like duhhhh. thahira la. or maybe notttt):

9) Are you scared to fall in love?
no, i already in love(:

10) Do you think teenagers can be in love?
yeah why not? im a teenager! (:

11) Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
the bus driver who refused to let me pay 55cants): <

12) What do you want right now?
a hug):

13) Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
i am, taken(:

14) When was the last time you cried?
last night):

15) I bet you miss somebody right now?
yes, a hell lot): stop bathing and text me):

16) How's your heart?
my heart's doing fine. (: no heart attacks like mee! HAHA.

17) Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
yeah, it sucks to feel that way):

18) Do you think somebody's in love with you?
yes, heehee(:

19) Next time will you kiss someone?
why not? (:

20) You're locked in the room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
its great(: and i'll get back to kissing again(: HAHAHA.

21) Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
yes please do so): (ohyay(: i really got a text right after i typed it!)

22) Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
of course(:

23) Name the last person that texted you.
audrey tan! :D

24) What do you want your audience to understand after reading this?
HAHA you just wasted a whole load of your time reading stupid stuff(:

kbyebye! :D

2009-06-09T21:13:00.009+08:00

take a photo of me,
and remember me forever.

when you kissed me,
it was like someone stuck my finger in a socket and left it to sizzle.

2009-06-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

sometimes life just chooses to make hell for you.
sometimes parents just choose to be unreasonable.
sometimes stuff just chooses to get in your way.
then what are you going to do abt it?

why some things occur and some things not, makes me wonder why all the bad things happen and not the good.

2009-06-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

when the earth beneath us start to crumble, would you still hold onto me?
i know i would.

2009-06-07T13:00:00.006+08:00

hi! :D

yesterday was okay i guess. had piano in the morning. the chem in the afternoon. then dinner at zi's place! omg. had fun. time to relax okay. HAHA. rawr.

today missed church cos overslept): did amath though(: i've got nothing more to say. HAHA.

chem and physics spa on 10th and 11th. wish me luck! haha.

i only wish i could spend more time with you, before i cant anymore. would you spend more time with me? ):

k photos and bye. ):

2009-06-05T22:54:00.009+08:00

heyo! :D

lets play with sparklers again, shall we? (:

today, i got up late. again. omg im such a pig. i sleep so early and wake up so late okay. feel, embarrassed): HAHAHA. not. but on time laaa. anyway lessons just skimed through. wasnt really listening. omg. TJ auditions. totally screwed up. F# major 2 octaves? omg. HAHAHA. i didnt hear charlene say two octaves. then blank out already play some minor stuff then she said two octaves after i finished. omg. im deaf): then played the wrong stuff all over again okay. please pity me): HAHA. the sightreading was omg. so hard. all the triplets. ): charlene said she had a hard time sourcing for a hard sightreading. please lor): cheat my feelings): HAHA. but i guess most of us got asked to send in our applications. so congrats to those, and cheerup to the rest alright? you can try harder for Os yeah? (:

OMG. i had a yucky dream. let me tell you abt it. omg. yuckyuckyuck. i dreamt that i was walking in this empty field. then suddenly got alotalotalot of indian men with hand at. there. saying the same yucky stuff okay. read audrey's blog for the yucky sentence. omg. then i run and scream and scream and screamed till i woke up. omg. HAHA. so suay please.

okay, im bored. going to sleep again probably. or go to bed and miss you): k bye):

2009-06-04T22:16:00.010+08:00

hello.

i want a bubble machine to blow my troubles away too):

i woke up late today, even though i slept before 1030 and set two alarms. omg. HAHA. heard the alarm, felt the alarm, switched it off and went back to sleep. it was 530000! what do you expect okay. HAHA. then the next time i woke up, broad daylight. the sun was shining in, i was feeling great and fresh too! what a great way to start my day! (:

NOT.

got to school late. rawr. got food before going in though. hungry people in class calling for help! HAHA. ohwell. lessons were the boring-est everrrr. whats the use of supp classes man. they're gonna bomb us with ir from the first day of school in T3 all the way till prelims okay. omg. laoya stupid school system. screw it man. rawr.

on a lighter and happier note, i made myself super happy after school(: took the bus with nava and shruthi. da bombxzxz man. they so funny. HAHA. then went to audrey's house! :D :D :D hehheh(: watched some shin chan, ate frosties, fooled around(:, and homeeeeee. i was so late going home okay. my gosh. HAHAHA. i was messaging and i looked back up to see my 43 being driven away. ): but i enjoyed myself(: heehee(: some people hornehhhh! (:

ohwell. tmr there is mock chem and physics spa. fantasticccccccc. sigh. why does the school keep doing things to us? sigh. you juniors out there, better enjoy your life first before its too late. HAHA. oh, mr tan was like MOP spa to-morrow. HAHAHAHA. laughing our asses off in class. not unless you have the new and improved restickable ass like rury, your ass would be off. HAHAHA. the little things that make like a little more interesting.

anyway, band is in a way, collapsing. come on guys, we have faith in you. dont let us down again and again okay? you wouldnt want us to leave thinking: " i never ever want to come back to band again, because im afraid of what it might have become when we leave." do you? come on, you can do it okay?

okay goodbye. i shall go try to salvage my mocks tmr. goodnightttt! :D

2009-06-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

why must you tell me not to reply you until you do? second time you're doing it. i really dont like it. really really dont. i can be weird and jealous over stupid stuff, but do you really have to ask me not to reply you? you dont have to talk to me if you dont want. just tell me to go away. not reply you only when you reply. because i have no single clue when you're ever going to reply. and whenever you say that, you just disappear, like forever. and return only after my heart has been torn up apart by those very words. why?

2009-06-01T19:49:00.003+08:00

heyyyy! (: seoul gardens was fun(: ate like, woah. im a fat fat pig already man. HAHA. ohwell. walked everywhere. everywhere of tamp1. every level, every store in that place. just, everywhere. feet ache like shit man. ): haha. but i enjoyed myself velli velli much(: thanks you audrey tantantannnn :D

sorry i know i expect too much sometimes. sorry i have that funny yucky feeling sometimes. its a funny yucky feeling from all the way, deep down inside. and it sucks. ): everytime i feel like, i want to cry. ): so yeah, really sorry for acting all weird. its difficult holding back tears. the feeling comes everytime you have to go. every single time. because i just hate that i have to wave goodbye to you. even if its just for that day and that i can see you the very next. even if i can see you the very next day. it just really sucks. am i to feel this funny yucky feeling everyday after i leave tk? im afraid. really afraid.

2009-05-31T22:58:00.003+08:00

hello.

i feel bored. went late to church. woke up only at 10 okay. HAHA. service starts at 10. HAHA. then yeah yeah yeah. OMG. GDOP da bombxzxzx! :D so fun okay. HAHA. i shall make it to gdop everytime man. jumpjumpjump, singsingsing, yayyayyay! :D HAHA. praise the awesome God! (: dinner with ahma and yeah. sorry for the horrible messages. sometimes, i just really hate you. and do not wish to talk to you. you dont have to say anything if you dont want to. saves me alot more hurt. thank you.

anyway, going to tamp1 with audrey tmr i think. bbq or buffet? haha. you decideeee! (: ohwell.

i shall calm myself down. I think, that I am, pms-ing. SO, do not come near me. not only will i bite, i'll chew you till there's none left to chew. i'd spit out the remains of your bones and off in the fire it goes. so yes. do not, i repeat, do not make me go to that extent. thank you very much.

okay i feel like telling you you and you abt me! :D
hello, my name is ngeeping.
do you know what my favourtie colour is?
do you know who my girlfriend is?
do you know who my bestfriend is?
do you know what cca im in?
do you know what i carry around everywhere i go?
do you know what kind of hair i have?
do you know whether i wear specs or not?
do you know what instruments i play?
do you know who i go recess with?
do you know who i hang out with in class?
do you know where i live?
do you know what i take to school?
do you know how many tuition classes i have?
do you know whether i paint my toenails?
do you know what kind of bag i carry?
do you know what i have inside my bag?
do you know whether i wear a watch?
do you know what brand of watch i would wear?
do you know what brand of watch i am wearing now?
do you know what degree my glasses are?
do you know when is my birthday?
do you know what are my favourite numbers are?
do you know what 23 stands for?
do you know what i like?
do you know whether i like balloons?
do you know whether i like fish?
do you know whether i like candles?
do you know whether i like bubbles?
do you know whether i like bananas?
do you know whether i like broccoli?
do you know anything about me at all?
if not, go and die. BLEAH.

haha okay, goodnight goodbye.

2009-05-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

hello.

hmm, so much for rain and shine today. didnt go out for cycling today): stayed home to rot to death. ohwell. at least i did some math. doesnt make me feel all that bad. sigh ohwell.

i want to see you.
i want to see you smile.
i want you to hold my hand.
i want you to lean on my shoulder.
i want to see you laugh.
i want to put my arms around your waist.
i want you to be here with me.
i want to make you happy.
i want you to tell me you love me.

so many wants, what does soon really mean?

k im off to, i dont really know what or where im off to. just somewhere not here. lets follow pebbi and gebbi and go off to dreamland for a date shall we? (:

goodnight, goodbye.

2009-05-30T02:00:00.002+08:00

i'd still say i love you even if you think they are meaningless, because i know i mean everyone one of it when i say one.

its really late, and im awake. i dont really know why. sigh.

no more quarrels okay? no more angry angry at each other okay? ): i hate it that we fight. we're not supposed to be unhappy. i want you to be happy):

k cycling tmr. gotta go sleep now or i'll fall off my bike tmr): goodnight all, goodnight baby.

2009-05-24T18:10:00.008+08:00

four slits. hmm. to see it bleed, then feel the hurt was exhilarating. i dont know how to describe it but ohwell.

i promise to tell you i love you everyday.
i promise to surprise you once every week.
i promise to quarrell with you once every month.
i promise when it rains i'll shield you from the rain.
i promise when the world comes tumbling down i'll hold you tight and never let you go.
do you believe my promises?

omg yay we can go back for practices to practice for the honour band concerttt! :D kinda miss band alot): HAHA jolene i know you also miss us righttttt! HAHAHA. sigh, but i guess its nice to see that your juniors have grown up eh. HAHA k this makes me seem super old. i am NOT old at all(: arra older. HAHAHA.

oh yeahhhh! happy belated arra heloiseeeee! :D eighteen ahhh! so old. HAHAHA. k love youuuu! (: (secretly! HAHA)

okay im bored. k bye.

2009-05-23T18:52:00.002+08:00

sigh, okay im like here at home rotting away. im kinda annoyed. my mother went to read my compo. annoying laaa. ): is there nothing such as privacy? ): rawr.

dont be sad, i'll be here to let you whisper your sadness away. im a phone call away, anytime anyday. i never want to see you upset or sad. i never want to because it hurts inside. to see you sad and not being able to do anything. im shoulder's available if you need it. im ears are free to listen to your whispers. come to me, cause im here for you.

sigh. tj concert now. i want to see charlene): sigh. k bye.

2009-05-23T18:24:00.003+08:00

OMG. WE'RE OFFICIALLY PLAYING FOR THE HONOUR BAND CONCERT. OMG. TKGSSB WE ROCKKKKKKKK! :D kudos to the whole syf batch! (: we brought back honour for tkgssb(: woohooooooo! :D

2009-05-21T21:47:00.003+08:00

happy 15th birthday audrey! (:
i love you(:

2009-05-17T22:49:00.002+08:00

hi(:

dinner was fantastic! :D we got to watch the guy cook. like. omg! super duper coolllllll! :D HAHA. but super duper fullllll! HAHA. jap food, ain't that bad actually(: HAHA.

and well, this is like my, i think fourth time blogging. sigh. what a birthday today. it doesnt really seem to be the best day of my life): sigh. k ohwell. i shall ignore that. at least, i really enjoyed myself yesterday(:

hold my hand again will you? i dont really wanna initiate things anymore. i want you to do it. i know i didnt imagine you holding my hand. i know you did. and it felt nice. it really did. make me happy a little more sometimes, please? ): its not alot to ask for is it?

alright, its getting late. maybe i'll post tmr if i feel like it. but i guess i wont really feel like it. k, goodbye goodnight.

2009-05-17T18:26:00.018+08:00

hi okay the photos are ready to be put upppp! :D okay i shall upload it at the end of the post. well anyway, today must seriously be the most boring day ever. not only did i not step out of the house, i got annoyed because of stupid people. and it just sucks, big time. sigh. how i wish yesterday was today. ): more meaningful big sixteenth. ohwell. xiushi came to gimme cell group cake(: omg. fourth cake in two days. HAHA. one from gang, two from aunt and one from xiu! haha. cake filledddddd! :D

the picture that says i love you, is coincidentally picture 101. sweet isn't it?

please, i beg you. never to ever listen or believe anything she says okay? im not close to her. i never will be close to her. believe me okay? rather than believing in her pack of lies, alright? it kinda hurt when you said she said it like as if you all were very close. it just kinda hurt. thats all. i hope, and i pray that you never listen to her ever again. thats all. i love you so terribly.

okay i shall sign off with photos. goodbye. okay blogger only allows this for now. others next time. im off to dinner with my family! (: bye! :D

2009-05-17T14:34:00.003+08:00

I HATE YOU S.
why did you go and have to ruin today of all days.
YOU SUCK SO MUCH.
to hell with you.

2009-05-17T11:39:00.004+08:00

HI! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME! :D
i had a ball of a time yesterdayyyy! :D firstly, thank you audrey tan for giving me the first present yesterday! (: HAHA. i so loved the bag and box of many many many stuff! :D i'll go listen to the cd! :D thank you so so so much! (: then joemin and amy ahhh! HAHA. ask daphne and vanessa make me walk slower! i crawling already can. HAHA. thanks amy and joemin for the shirttt! :D pretty! :D and thanks shi for the scary cute ghost! (: HAHA. and woohoooo! :D yesterday got band! (: HAHA. played ponyooo! but was kinda slacking throughout. HAHA. combine was funny. HAHA. then went outtt! :D went to parkway. omg earthquake! HAHA. oh, while they were deciding what to get me, i was trying to listen lor. then they ask daphne entertain me. HAHA. good entertaining ah daphne! snowboarding, i not so pro la): HAHA. but thanks! :D lime ice cream is weird. HAHA. then pizzaaaaaaa! (: then audrey and joemin disappear!!!! ): what change pad, what constipation lor. HAHAHA. got me fooleddd! HAHA. but i expected something but not that! (: went to the carpark lobby to eat! (: surprise cakeeeee! :D HAHA. thanks audrey thahira jolene joemine amy daphneee! (: and i had to sing my birthday song, myself okay. the rest only last line then sing lor): "happy birthday to me): happy birthday to me): happy birthday to me-eeee): HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU(:" HAHA. they made me give this cute girl a piece of cake lor. HAHA. she so cute! HAHA. then went to video world to slack. audrey sent me off at the bus stop. thanks for TWO hugs! (: made my day(: HAHA. then off to yan's houseeeeeee! went to shop for stuff like ice etc etc. dinner buffet was fantastic. i kept eating okay. HAHA. had swensens ice cream cake! omg. HAHA. played with yan's new camcorder! omg. super fun can. HAHA. can be host for stupid interviews! :D HAHA. reached home and died on my bed. HAHA. enjoyed myself super super much! (:

thanks everyone for the wishes at midnight or 1159! according to time!
1144: rahmah! :D
1159: audreyyy!! <333 thahira! :D <33
midnight and onwards! : lishan, daphne, fel, jolene, yauting, KIDSSS! :D
today: jackie, tzu chun, arra, sarah tan, charlene, robyn, deborah, renee, tajpreet, chenfang, joemin, qishan, jessica tan, desiree, sheryl.
thanks you all! :D

k photos are refusing to be uploaded. stupid com. k another time okay? or later la! (: k bye! :D

2009-05-14T21:37:00.016+08:00

hi omg! that was so thahira okay. she totally typed everything. except my few sentences in a bracket la. HAHA. she was lameeeeee! HAHA. okay i shall tell you about my eventful day yesterday. i had to wake my idiot brother up. so i got up super early): and couldnt go back to sleep): so i just kinda lolled around and did nothing. HAHAHA. then bus-ed to thahira's houseeeee! she's mad. HAHA. i felt good. talked SOOOOOO much to her. HAHA. did stupid things at her house. HAHA. then watched silent hill! omg. scary. but didnt get to finish): went to go find.. AUDREY TANNNNN! :D HAHA. then went to follow eat eattttt! then walk walk awhile and home we went): but. i feel good(: i made the two people i love most, kinda happy(: heehee(: k pictures and bye! :D ignore the previous post please. it was all thahira's stupid doing. HAHA. k bye! :D
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k that was so yesterday. didnt get to post it. HAHA. okay elearning is sucky. HAHA. firstly, i was super late. HAHA. i woke up at 915 and went "shit shit SHITTTTT!" then ran out. HAHA. did it. helped audrey tan tan too! (: HAHA. then yeah. went out to lunch and shop around with my mummy. we walked around the whole of parkway. like literal, round and round and round! HAHA. ohwell. quite fun laaa! HAHA. i happy! tmr gonna be even happier! :D HAHA. k give you hint! special day on sunday! hinthint. HAHAHA. k really, BYEBYE! :D

2009-05-14T11:52:00.003+08:00

HELLO I'm at thahira's house now.
Her room damn neat and smells DAMN nice!
You should come toooo! HEEHEEHEE(:
THAHIRA'S THE BESTEST WOOHOO.
She looks so HAWT in the pyjamas!!! -FAINTS- ;)
(omg this is so thahira typing!!! please dont listen to a word she is saying. she is so not hot please. what more, HAWT. HAHAHA. okay i shall disappear and let her ego somemore!)
OH WHATEVER I'm just jealous thahira SOOO HOT. :D

This sunday its my birthday *hint hint!!!*
I hope I have a party!! Last night I dreamt that everybody come my house surprise me, I just told Thahira the dream. (Thahira rolls eyes) MUAHA.
I'm sleeping on Thahira's "JELLY" the giraffe and it says "ROAR"
(but hey, giraffes don't roar luh..) For me, everything must ROAR.
And Im singing now... I know I sound damn horrible.. SIGH
HOW I WISH I COULD SING LIKE THAHIRA, SOO NICE (;

Heee okie I go play with my favourite THAHIRAAAA <3

2009-05-13T15:46:00.018+08:00

omg hi. i tell you. im seriously bored. i've been rotting away at home. sigh. piano in the morning. did some chores. rotten potatoes that melt, smells exactly like dead people. ohgod. ohwell. i have been rotting ever since. no one's talking to me. stupid thahira go swimming. audrey disappeared on a mission. WHO AM I TO TALK TOOO??? -desperate cries heard- HAHA. okay, too dramaaaaa! miss ang was like, 'why you never join drama!' ohwell. be glad im in band! (: heehee(: HAHA. okay i shall create a tagboard later on. commenting is weird. HAHA. oh yay my memory card can be read. omgggggggg! k photosssss! :D okay wait. my com is hanging. dang. this sucks. i shall request for a lappy for my birthday(: HAHA okay look at the photosssss! :D pebbi went for a swim. she's super white(: mother say gebbi look like african. HAHA. look at me and ziiii! and my attitude-d face. HAHAHA. :D when we were kids. and the rest all random. some is when we went for syffff! our last with tkgssb): sigh. i miss band already): i miss my sectionnnnnnnnnn): sigh k bye! :D enjoy the photos(:

2009-05-13T13:37:00.002+08:00

Thank you.
I know no matter how many times I say thanks, it'll nvr be able to express how I truly feel.
Cause what's inside is indescribably nice and a really soothing feeling.
You always make me smile and laugh at over anything and everything.
You always make me enjoy everything we do, together.
Cause I know I have you, I know I have nothing to worry about.
I know you'll always be there for me, protecting me.
I just want you to know, I'll always be here for you, and lend you my strong shoulder.
Be here to let you hold me hand tight, and keep encouraging you on.
You'll feel the wind surging, and a storm brewing, but do not fear cause I'll be by your side no matter what.
That, is a solemn promise I make to you, and I'll never break it (:
I want you to keep hanging on no matter what, cause you know I wont give up on you.
You know it inside out.
So for now, let's just enjoy each other's company and keep staying strong.
For we have each other.

haha grabbed it off my old lj. ohwell. i guess, i'll forget that horrible scene. it kept replaying in my head last night though. time and time again. i cried for you not to go. you stopped. you didnt turn, and you walked out. again and again. it was like a broken video replaying itself. over and over again. for that five whole hours that you didnt talk to me. five whole hours. i've nvr cried for so long in my whole entire life. but, ohwell. k im having cramps. period time. dont aggravate me okay. i'll murder you. goodbye.

2009-05-12T19:01:00.002+08:00

im sorry. i really am. i dont want any birthday present. i dont want anything. i just dont want you to ignore me. i just want you to tell me you love me. is it really hard to do that? im sorry. i am. sorry.

if you dont know. its okay.
if you dont care. its okay.
if you dont love. its okay.
i promised to love you forever.
and i will; i dont want to break promises aymore.
i will say i hate you for making me love you.
i will say i hate you for making me believe you.
but its what i say.
deep down, you know, i know.
that i still love you.
but, i dont think you really do anymore.
and it hurts.
but you dont really care do you?

2009-05-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

HI! :D

omg i kinda had fun today. emath was alright! (: geog was okay i guess. who cares. only left with physicsssssss! :D woohooooo! :D HAHA. anyway, went out with audrey, amy, joemin after school. omg i typed joeman. HAHAHA. anyway, went everywhere. buttttttttt! so suay please. of all times and of all places. please la, more like you ruin our moods right. you what ruined mood cos of us. puh-lease. but we didnt let that bitch ruin our day. no way will she ruin my day. went to videoworld to slackkkkk. best place ever manxzxz. HAHA.

okay i was talking to thahira just now. look what she said.
THAHIRA says:
EH POST ABOUT ME!!
THAHIRA says:
"THAHIRA DAMN AWESOME SIAH!"
please, she is so not awesome can. HAHA. aiya i tell you what she is okay. she might probably be the worst uncool unawesome bestfriend ever cannn. sigh. i wonder why i have such a a bestfriend okay. HAHAHA. k la, joking. HAHA. best bestfriend ever la(: HAHA. but thahira, please dont be ego. HAHA.

ohwell. im starting to dread what may start coming. its only such a short time and im missing you so much already. you told me you wouldnt be able to go out anymore. not even on tuesdays. it just kinda made me sad. you know i get emotionally attached. sometimes it hurts you know? ):

well k bye. dont really feel like talking anymore. i hate CYT. kbye.

2009-05-06T18:22:00.002+08:00

damnit.

i hate ___________. just my luck to have met such people. thank God im leaving like at the end of this year. if you were to ask me to stay a while longer, i guess i'll pass out for you to see. sigh. amath and chem wasn't so good today): how to get my target this term): omg): sigh.

i will not stop going to videoworld because i believe i am not that unlucky to see you there EVERYTIME i go there. dont ruin the place i love to go to after school okay? let me at least enjoy it there without having to see you there okay? at least till the end of this year okay? its not veh hard is it? sigh. new generation BABIES are spoilt brats. take a look at you you and you. sigh, classic example. i shall not waste my time talking about you. you only make my blood boil. especially when you think NSF can help. please stop siding them when you're talking to them, and then siding us when you're talking to us. its being a FAKE, exactly like them.

sigh. k studying for lit now! goodbye. wish me luck i wont get to see that bitch tmr.

2009-04-25T15:04:00.002+08:00

hi.

ohgod. midyears have freaking started and im still here. HAHA. ohwell. i shall study, later. HAHA. well, just wanna tell all of you, i love my girlfriend alot. dont kill her okay? that'll be just really mean. and your other stupid classmates, ask them to go away okay? i hate them, alot.

i try to fight back the tears,
but sometimes its difficult.
lets buy a few bottle of beers,
and express how we all felt.

2009-04-18T17:47:00.002+08:00

hi(:

rawr exams are coming so soon. lets work hard yo. oh and band's starting again on the 20 of may! in case you all didnt know. haha. so study hard for mid years then put your heart and soul into practicing! gosh i miss band so much): what will it be like if we graduate? ): rawr okay time to go study! goodbye(:

2009-04-14T22:22:00.002+08:00

some feelings overwhelm. but yet at times, i feel nothing. nothing at all, y'know? its just, blank. or what you can say, a big fat blob of white gloop. i have no idea how to describe how im feeling, cos i dont really know what im feeling anymore. i think im feeling this, but yet i think again and maybe nope im not really feeling that. its, weird you can say. i dont really know how to explain it either.

classes are getting worse and worse. ir aint no better. man, life sucks. but it has to go on. ohwell. what are the odds of not being able to survive. lets calculate. hmm. okay i'd rather not waste some more of my time thinking, making my head explode.

i shall go now.
sometimes its weird being on an emotional rollercoaster. yet its fun sometimes. hmm the irony eh? ohwell. what can we do?

goodbye.